Daemoons Dream Journal

[guest587]

falling asleep, salsa competition

i remember my friend david being around as i fell asleep in a recliner.



later i am put in a salsa competition and dancing with one of my high school crushes kathy b. it was nice holding her hands and feeling her body against mine, she liked me twirling her. when it came time to compete there was that adventure feel like id traveled and been through quite an experience.



i remember looking at an 80 year old man dance with two women. people were so surprised by his age, because he looked to be in his 40's.

[guest587]

cobra, prisoner, climbing, bunnies, travel(tennessee?)

lots of activity...

i remember the first dream, i saw a picture of myself. i was in much better shape than i am now. i was in a meditative pose, and there was a large cobra encompassing the entirety of my minds eye.

i was holding on to this detail so much that the subsequent dream is barley remembered- just that i am once again talking to carolina, her brother scott- and sammy. i am a guest somewhere... and i remember training outside, climbing up something using rings... the dream kind of descends and i have bits and pieces of information that i can recall.

there's naked people kept prisoner in cages. it's maddening to a degree, one man is being electrocuted as torture to break him and teach him compliance. they continually bring his heart, "back online" after severely shocking him. i see other naked men in cages and one guy is acting like an animal but they have a mirror in the cage and when he sees himself he recognizes his humanity. i felt him, his maddening isolation- his going crazy. somehow we are connected.

shortly after i remember being freed from this prison like setting and following a giant bunny. i am trying to capture his attention because he is so unphased by my being there. i end up following him down hill and a type of burrow to my left. i see another bunny covered in feces or mud. the burrow is home to many bunnies. there are plastic bags in the burrow. i begin tasking myself with cleaning it out. it slowly becomes more habitable. i am even rearranging the dirt trying to give it a fresh feel. while i'm doing this one of the rabbits wants to bite me. he doesn't, after realizing i've just cleaned his home. but somehow i start seeing a bunch of bunnies appear- all different shapes and sizes, and next thing i know i am being chased uphill by a ton of rabbits.

i then descend into another dream where i am being linked back to the prisoners. there's a bunch of children and i am watching the two older girls talk to one another wondering how they can break free from this absurd captivation. there are plenty of cats in this scene... that's all i really remember here.

lastly i am traveling alone. it is a really beautiful sensation- it feels like perhaps i've landed in tennesee. i end up in a womans yard and she is in her driveway, its a really long driveway with lots of shade. she's in her chair on her cellphone talking to someone. she notices me by her tree crossing her path. she just looks at me and we have a silent acknowledgement- asking her if i may cross. she carries on the conversation with her friend and mentions the city Houston(my hometown). i feel like i'm in the right place. i begin to notice all these beautiful insects climbing on her tree. i become so captivated by all the life on her tree. the health of her tree. the cool ambient light provided by the sun. the gentle shade. i almost recall the the aroma of fresh dirt... i can feel such a peaceful energy. i wake up to a very comforting and lovely sensation.

[guest587]

I haven't been maintaining my journal here but will provide an update. The last two weeks have been very eventful.

In one day alone I witnessed the following...

My coworkers friend lost her daughter. This girl was also like my coworkers daughter(as close as they all were). Her funeral is this Friday(same as Dads birthday). It was surreal to see my coworker break down, and to see her daughters come to her place of work to mourn together in the back. There was a high energy in their loss, they were together after all and that really stood out to me. May God Bless those who were lost and those still here suffering from this loss.

Two hours later I had to leave work to attend my friends wedding. I went from one high energy to another, this time I was witnessing the uniting of two families as a gain. When the priest was talking I was getting goosebumps over certain words(specifically, "permanence") which was an indication to me of a type of communication from Spirit. By the time the wedding was over I was invited to go to dinner but was feeling a little emotionally spent from all that I had just witnessed. I decided to go home and make a trip to the store to buy comfort food. Corn bread and lentil soup. On my drive there, I realized I witnessed a loving sense of togetherness in both the gain and the loss...

I was feeling this sense of connecting with my higher self and a strong desire to be a better family member, a better son and to embrace the role of a fatherly figure in my community. I called my Aunt to chat and during our phone call she said the words, "God" and "Life" when in that exact moment I noticed a car in front of me with a bumper sticker displaying two very large words, "God" and "Life." How God and our Larger Self are able to orchestrate reality in this manner is a most perplexing and satisfying mystery. I shared this with my Aunt then had to go because I arrived to the grocery store.

While at the store my Mother tried calling me. She was distraught. She had spent the day with a family friend and was calling me from her driveway(the friends driveway). Our friend was needing medical attention right away. Mom asked me to get Dad and come help her. She had tried calling Dad but he was passed out on the recliner with his phone on low volume. I woke him up to learn he was passed out from heavy drinking. By the grace of God we were able to navigate to the persons house, despite my Dad not remembering how to get there and despite my Mother not giving us the address. By the time we arrived the EMS was there. When it was all said and done, I left some banana bread I just happened to buy while at the store for Caroline, our family friend- hoping she'd see it the next day. My Dad estimates she has 6 months to a year left in this life. It's a crude assessment and I hope he is wrong, but it isn't too far from the truth. 

That happened in one day and I was really left ruminating on the wild chain of events. The amazing language from God as an unseen guiding system- had I gone to dinner after the wedding ceremony I might not have been able to help in the moment when Mom needed it. The sense of community and togetherness. The losses and the gains, the suffering and the joy. There's really still so much to take in from it all.   

As we were nearing the Thanksgiving holiday we had a different family friend over the course of a few nights- she is going through quite a bit too and may soon lose her Father. I tried to be accommodating to her and to my family. It's a good practice.

The Friday after Thanksgiving a child walked up to me and brandished a weapon. It was a pistol. He was trying to act tough in front of his friends. He looked half my body weight and scrawny as can be. There was a slight drizzle outside and it was two in the afternoon. He and his friend were asking me for two dollars and I said no. That's when the one kid moved in closer(he was so close I could have leaned forward and hit him with my head) and pulled a gun out from his persons and said, "are you sure about that?" I didn't know how to act- I just said I was sure. I could see the thoughts in his mind creating further instability- his behavior irrational, his anger multiplying. There was a moment where I really looked deeply into his eyes. That's when he decided to let it go. He told me, "I'm just playin' hahaha" and started walking away. I told him it wasn't funny. He said, "Yeah it is- don't you see me laughin' bitch? Hahaha, I will shoot you!" I proceeded to tell him, "Love over hate... You need to grow up." He shouted some nonsense and stormed off.

It wasn't until about half an hour later my nerves finally caught up to me and I realized what happened. At first I was angry with my self thinking I had an opportunity to drop the kid and remove the weapon- to call the police and teach him a lesson. I suppose it all happened as it should have... And more I am trying to think, "WWJD" What would Jesus do? A Master of divine realization, would he have acted violently? I don't think so. I prefer nonviolence... The child only brandished the weapon discretely, he didn't point it at me. Had he pointed it at me I think I would engage physically. It's a different scenario... I pray God grants me the strength to handle future encounters wisely, quickly and with Loving Spirit. With firmness and ferocity if it is Gods Will, but always with a cool head if I can help it.

So why am I sharing all this here in the dream journal? Well one to catch you up with everything... And two, not to long ago I dreamt I made contact with a "greater being" and I think the connection has something to do with all that has been happening. A greater being doesn't necessarily mean good or bad... I do think it represents a "larger self" or a part of "God." I am still recording and journaling my dreams elsewhere so here is a portion from that entry... The experience happened sometime Saturday night/Sunday morning. The dream journal shows a timestamp of 5:55
 
blinding light being
5:55 AM - 2 days ago#2144
in the first part of my dream i met a being who had a sun inside of him. the light was so bright it was blinding and flooded my entire vision, i could barley keep my eyes open and look.
i woke up and it imparted a message.


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Unfortunately I was too tired to record the message. I experienced a hesitation before falling back asleep like a part of my self was demanding I record the dream right away so as not to forget. It's interesting to note the message came immediately after I woke up. Instead I fell back asleep. Also interesting is that, though I did not see the being again- I did dream about him the rest of the night/into early morning. I was on a spacecraft in the next dream cycle trying to tell people about the being- and from that dream I descended into regular dreaming while telling people at a grocery store about the being. In both dreams no one really believed me. I'm okay with that.

While I don't remember exactly what was said, I have Faith that what needed to be communicated was indeed received(like downloading data). God sent me a wink later in the evening to confirm this had been the case, using a personal totem to deliver this message.

Considering the chain of events, and the deep desire to embrace my God-given gender and learn how to be a better man... I think these instances are all connected and serving a higher purpose. Well... the journey goes on, and I just hope I am practicing those deeper desires- which in turn are creating harmony in my circles.

Cheers for now. 

[guest587]

pilot license, drugged and operated on

in the first dream, i am driving a highway to an abandoned lot. i am looking for a facility that is going to teach me how to become a pilot. the skies are dark and the lot looks empty, its like an abandoned junkyard- just a lot of brown dirt and mud hills. i park my car and know im at the right spot. i walk over a mound and see on the other side a facility. it's the right place. inside the facility i see my aunt tammy(my uncles wife) and she and the few others are completely naked. there's absolutely no sexual energy here, it's like a shared male and female locker room. they're going to teach me to pilot a small craft in order to get my license. the facility has everything i need- food, a bunk for sleeping... even iced coffee. the machine for the ice coffee is really strange and my friend david is there rushing me telling me how to use it. i punch him and tell him i'll figure it out. when it comes time to pilot the craft i choose an old fighter jet the f15.

before waking up i remember being in the cockpit and going down the runway with it. i remember my instructor, he seemed like a famous actor of some sort... and we were communicating back with the tower. this was his operation and i noticed people were very casual over the radio. this part of the dream is blending with my hitting david trying to get ice coffee out of this very futuristic machine. it is assumed a lot of time has passed with my staying at this facility.

i wake up... it's 4:15AM and i have a busy day of work so i decide not to record and be bothered by bright lights but instead go back to sleep. as i try to fall back asleep i am recalling my dream, i am confident i will remember it.

when i fall back asleep, the second dream is harder to remember. there are scenes... and it ends with being operated on- my grandma who has since passed is there watching the operation with concern.
in one scene i remember a woman martial artists advancing through a series of obstacles.

in another, and this is very lude- is a attractive hispanic woman messaging my mom. my mom is put off and hides the phone. i ask her whats going on and take the phone to see this girl is in a movie theatre texting who she thinks is my dad or a man pictures of herself topless. suddenly i'm there like watching a movie, there is a black guy having sex with her in the movie theatre- he is holding up cash and she is exposing herself on camera. the feeling is she is soliciting herself. its a very gross feeling and im following this girl around for some reason- she is being used by others for money. someone's last request is for her to touch a donkey inappropriately. its like i am there witnessing, like i'm a ghost in the scene. i am both grossed out and curious to this girl. she's there emotionless going through the motions. its very upsetting actually. i start thinking this is animal cruelty.

in another scene i remember someone cheating in basketball and being discouraged. i tell whoever is there why should i bother playing if this person is going to cheat regardless.

by the end of this dream i am on an operating table. my cardiologist is there. the hispanic girl that was there doing things for money is my nurse. someone, before my cardiologist came in to operate- had drugged me. in fact, before being operated on i was walking around this building extremely high. this operation took place in my mouth. the nurse injected blood into me. and she was surprised to see blood coming out from a corner of my mouth. there was a technical term used here but i can't remember... but she wrote it down, something about what she was witnessing was strange and not a part of the described operation.  it's 6:45am and even though it's only been just a little over two hours it feels like a lot more has happened in this dream recall.

and i remember the idea of walking around high- like someone implanted this in me. i don't remember getting high, and this drug is way more potent than any kind of marijuana. on the operating table, the doctor tells me to look at this static black and white screen- there is a buzzing and vibrating happening in my mouth. there are numbers on the screen. first its 10 seconds, then its 59 seconds- then its 40 some odd seconds. my grandma is there to tell me that it was actually a 3 hour operation, she is a concerned onlooker. during the operation i feel the doctor and the vibration and im hallucinating that my face is being ripped off. its terrifying- i know i am under drugs and that something about this isn't real- but i still feel the fear. i get these ideas of pain. and the drugs are taking the pain into warped heights. when i come out of the operation the doctor said something implying that i chose to do the drugs or was going to go trip on drugs after the operation... none of which i can say is true. it was another idea being implanted in me...

my grandma was there to comfort me as i was walking around what had to be a hospital building. its strange i felt like i was in DC and before i woke up i saw these buildings facing each other. four buildings- a north, west, east and south. i saw hillary clinton there and she was explaining something to me. as much as i don't like hillary clinton she saw something in my eyes and took a liking to me. i saw something in her eyes that suggested compassion... she had deep vibrant marble blue eyes. in waking life i think this woman is quite evil. she was impressed i noticed the buildings, for whatever reason. and asked me what i thought about them. i said they were nice.

i wake up....


some notes, strange obervations...
before this dream yesterday during work i felt a pin sensation in my left arm. the small prick of pain actually had a red rash around it, exactly in the spot where someone who receives a vaccine would go. not sure if this operation is connected...

i am wondering if i am dreaming in any way of my nights at the hospital and the psychiatrist who tried to prescribe me way too much xanax. i never wanted the xanax, i wonder if this is related?

also interesting to note was instead of drawing blood the nurse was putting blood inside me... and that blood was leaking out of the corner of my mouth- though she put blood in my right arm...i felt a sensation in my left shoulder/veins after she did it.

there are others in our dream community log who are also experiencing being operated on by ET's(it's all being recorded around the same time). 

[Jitendra Hydonus]

I wonder Eric have you had dreams that seemed so real that when you were ‘ awake’ you had to recognize that your thought of what happened didn’t correspond with waking life? I had such a dream about thinking I was corresponding with someone who loved the arts and recognized that person didn’t exist so I must have been dreaming it.

[guest587]

Hi Steve.
I'm not sure I understand. Maybe we can chat about it over the phone sometime. Steve I had a 24 hour bug and slept all day yesterday. I vaguely remember having a dream with you in it talking about meditation.

My dream from two nights ago:

captive animals, an upgrade

i had birds and squirrels in captivity and didn't know it. i completely forgot about them and it was very depressing because i wanted them to be healthy and happy.

i remember seeing my friends who also had caged animals- but they seemed happier. i was learning how to take care of these critters and being taught a lesson.

there was the strangest ant who suddenly started extending its neck, up and up and up... it was beyond the capabilities of anything i'd seen from an ordinary ant. until suddenly it was transformed into a small black and bronze tower standing about 4 or 5 feet high.

it was giving an upgrade to all the animals around me.

i saw a chicken and a cat hunting with a lion cub- together. they were learning self reliance.

some of the birds in the cage died... some were starting to fly again.

overall i did not feel good about birds in cages.

there was another scene with a young man learning his independence- and he pulled me out from this group and we started dancing together. he was trying to grab the attention of the ladies in the crowd.

the idea here is others need to advance around me. i think i've been too much about my self, and not ensuring that others are also growing successfully.

before i woke up i saw my boss sharon who had a very large tank with many birds and squirrels in it. they were very happy compared to the dismal state i had found mine. again i believe there's a lesson here on creating a friendly and or suitable environment for other life. maybe it means to create the environment for my coworkers, and friends and family.

[guest587]

This one feels like something is communicating to me. I woke up to the song War Pigs playing in my mind... And I randomly selected a video on youtube to listen to the song. As it started up I got intense chills in my spine, it is a sign something is communicating... And Really strange my dream, before waking up- involved a girl communicating with unseen beings on the radio and she is walking away with something red in her hand- Just like the girl in the music video. While watching I got really emotional and tears were rolling down my face... I think what's being communicated is there is a lot of rage... And desire for freedom. There's a lot of cruelty happening... And seeing the word freedom at the end of the video is what my Soul longs for.

I would also like to add... that I've visited Hawaii a few times where OBE's are concerned. One AP experience I remember is actually being in and sensing the environment through the eyes of another male body living in Hawaii- I wonder if this person really exist and he is like a type of portal or anchor for spiritual experiences/point consciousness.

With the dream below. I don't think it's a nefarious communication- but it feels like they are upset by our world affairs... I don't know... Well, I don't share here regularly anymore- but do maintain my journal elsewhere and have been active on other forums regarding astral experience. That being said another forum member at astralpulse just had a dream where he or she was visited by "Deer" humanoid type beings and they imparted a message to him or her. It also involved rage and transformation. There are greater "themes" connecting us all.

Here are the dream details...

Rapid fire dream successions. Theme of communication happening over Radio.

First I remember my Sister acting so incredibly rude, hateful and manipulative. To the point we are fighting. I think she is begging for attention. She keeps trying to hurt me and frame me. I throw a foldable chair in her face and I think it breaks her nose. She is working heavily with Mom through something. I feel bad once I see the chair make contact with her.

Later I dream I am Miley Cyrus's assistant. I won some contest, or something. And she puts a song of ours on the radio. I don't know she does this and I don't like the song. If she allowed more singing... Instead she is focused on a kind of rage/punk screaming. It's a mixture of rap, singing and screaming with a male and female energy(I am the male and Miley the female). Britney my childhood friend hears this song with her girlfriends. My Sister hears it too. I think they are surprised I am even at this level of recognition. They just think it's cool I am on the radio. The radio... This feels important.

Shift to a room, possibly somewhere in Hawaii. I am loading a pile of gift cards with value of $20 for her fans.

Randomly  ... I can't tell if this is before or after the helicopter scene. I believe I'm still Miley Cyrus' assistant. Does she have a daughter? We're still in Hawaii, like we're on vacation. There's a little girl walking up to these speakers on the floor. They are emitting a strange sound. It's similar to the noise you used to hear when turning the knob sifting through radio stations... A low static noise. The girl is now speaking to someone in the speakers. They are on the other side and they are listening. I can't see anyone. It's a little freaky watching her communicate with unknown beings, except the static on the radio is actually responding to the child. Low distortions replying back.

Before my parents come up to the room the girl is forced to cut a rabbit, it's magic in that it doesn't bleed- and she cuts it to hide whatever has been going on in secret communication. The white rabbit fur transforms into a smooth piece of sofa furniture. A very odd detail of me zooming in on her manically cutting this talking rabbit, until there's nothing left except a red organ(something, 'inside out') which she walks off with in her hand before disappearing.

Another shift and I am again being observed by my peers. My Sister and her friends. I am jumping out of a helicopter into the water towards my friends Rob and Chase. They are already in the water. The helicopter gets a little lower and I dive in and off to the side. I motion them I want to race to the other side of the water where there are people cheering. The ocean becomes a pool with roped lanes and we are racing to the end. It's a close race, my friends had the advantage having started off straight- whereas I had to jump out of a helicopter and correct my positioning. But I use this momentum to catch up. Chase starts to drop off and it's between Rob and I. I just beat him by placing my hand on the end seconds before him.

Wake up to pee.

As I recall everything and try to go back to sleep,
War Pigs by Black Sabbath starts playing in my mind...

[guest587]

steve i had a dream with you in it. for entertainment purposes i will share here,

friend Steve, aunt hosting a party
the first thing i remember is being somewhere where a kid threatens a group of people with a gun. i'm not afraid, just tired of the bs. i wonder why i don't do anything about it. this time i decide to stand my ground, the kid shoots me and i lay down pretend to be dead. he then stands over my body and shoots it a couple more times to make a point. once he's done, i stand up- as if unphased by the bullets, grab the gun and shoot him.

after i remember meeting my friend steve out of state. he is in a large RV and we're driving it back to PA where my aunt is staying. i talk to him about the kid with the gun, he tells me the same thing happened to him. i remember this really large RV being parked in the driveway. the party has already started. i think steve and my aunt might make an interesting couple at one point. but steve is older than i remember. i walk in the kitchen and everyone is there, aunt is serving up food. i introduce steve to my aunt and my aunt seems unimpressed. steve takes a seat next to pappy my grandpa, and i tell everyone i have been friends with steve at the spiritual portal for some time. steve reveals he is in his 70's and says he looks younger than his actual age.
its a pool party and my high school crush lauren is there asking to speak to april. i still find laurens petite figure and red hair desirable. i get aprils attention because lauren didn't make her self known well enough- and later my shirt is off as i'm about to swim and mom says i got a lot of sun specifically that my back is very tan.
i believe steve is in this dream scene as we contemplate a potential roommate situation.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

steve i had a dream with you in it. for entertainment purposes i will share here,

friend Steve, aunt hosting a party
the first thing i remember is being somewhere where a kid threatens a group of people with a gun. i'm not afraid, just tired of the bs. i wonder why i don't do anything about it. this time i decide to stand my ground, the kid shoots me and i lay down pretend to be dead. he then stands over my body and shoots it a couple more times to make a point. once he's done, i stand up- as if unphased by the bullets, grab the gun and shoot him.

after i remember meeting my friend steve out of state. he is in a large RV and we're driving it back to PA where my aunt is staying. i talk to him about the kid with the gun, he tells me the same thing happened to him. i remember this really large RV being parked in the driveway. the party has already started. i think steve and my aunt might make an interesting couple at one point. but steve is older than i remember. i walk in the kitchen and everyone is there, aunt is serving up food. i introduce steve to my aunt and my aunt seems unimpressed. steve takes a seat next to pappy my grandpa, and i tell everyone i have been friends with steve at the spiritual portal for some time. steve reveals he is in his 70's and says he looks younger than his actual age.
its a pool party and my high school crush lauren is there asking to speak to april. i still find laurens petite figure and red hair desirable. i get aprils attention because lauren didn't make her self known well enough- and later my shirt is off as i'm about to swim and mom says i got a lot of sun specifically that my back is very tan.
i believe steve is in this dream scene as we contemplate a potential roommate situation.

That was really sweet of you to add the above.

“Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby ii ii iii
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true”

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Hi Steve.
I'm not sure I understand. Maybe we can chat about it over the phone sometime. Steve I had a 24 hour bug and slept all day yesterday. I vaguely remember having a dream with you in it talking about meditation.

My dream from two nights ago:

captive animals, an upgrade

i had birds and squirrels in captivity and didn't know it. i completely forgot about them and it was very depressing because i wanted them to be healthy and happy.

i remember seeing my friends who also had caged animals- but they seemed happier. i was learning how to take care of these critters and being taught a lesson.

there was the strangest ant who suddenly started extending its neck, up and up and up... it was beyond the capabilities of anything i'd seen from an ordinary ant. until suddenly it was transformed into a small black and bronze tower standing about 4 or 5 feet high.

it was giving an upgrade to all the animals around me.

i saw a chicken and a cat hunting with a lion cub- together. they were learning self reliance.

some of the birds in the cage died... some were starting to fly again.

overall i did not feel good about birds in cages.

there was another scene with a young man learning his independence- and he pulled me out from this group and we started dancing together. he was trying to grab the attention of the ladies in the crowd.

the idea here is others need to advance around me. i think i've been too much about my self, and not ensuring that others are also growing successfully.

before i woke up i saw my boss sharon who had a very large tank with many birds and squirrels in it. they were very happy compared to the dismal state i had found mine. again i believe there's a lesson here on creating a friendly and or suitable environment for other life. maybe it means to create the environment for my coworkers, and friends and family.

Interesting you would say this;

“some of the birds in the cage died... some were starting to fly again.

overall i did not feel good about birds in cages.”

I was listening to Amma talk once and she said that “birds should not be caged.” It is meant for birds to fly.

[guest587]

Hi Steve. I tend to agree, and feel equally strange when I see fish confined to such small tanks.

Thanks for taking an interest. I think I will share last nights dreams, which might provide more of an understanding with why I am focused on the alligator and discussing unspoken energies shared between two people.

tapping into unresolved emotions?
i come home to find the back door has been left partially opened by dad. i try to take a photo and show him because i was worried the dogs could have escaped and roamed the streets. the sun was setting and coming out from the door. it was beautiful.
after i am transported to somewhere...
i am being told to avoid the meningitis shot. it's being brought into discussion somehow... perhaps two females are impressing this idea on me. avoid the meningitis shot. there's a great emphasis on this, updated information coming out?
i run into my ex brenda. she is drunk and being very expressive with her emotions. she is telling me how happy she was to have learned something while dating this middle eastern man. shes wondering who i've been with since we've been apart. it seems she is solely focused on her self. she tells me she decided she changed her mind about me, and throws her self on me. i am not so receptive, my reluctance is detected by her. she has two roommates. one is there witnessing her advances on me. the idea is there is sexual energy happening all around me. the roommate is touching themselves and brenda is wanting to engage sexually in front of others. instead i am crying internally as we are hugging. really surreal i see white light as tears in my minds eye(blackness or nothingness). she can feel these emotions. i don't wish to engage her drunken behavior, realizing i have very little say in this relationship. realizing i am actually quite slow to open up. the roomate leaves. i am staying the night, and brenda is trying to get something out of me. instead she ends up passing out. i tuck her in bed. there is some feeling here, somewhere in between all this about her work and law. i suppose she is still a lawyer.
the third roommate enters and wonders who i am. she is at first a little aggressive. i find out she works at the highschool i used to go to. it turns out she is a year younger than me and also went to the same HS. she's in her 30's now. there is only a little time spent here...
again there is something about the sunlight i start to find captivating, like it is transporting me to the next dream sequence...
before this happens the roommate in her 30's tells me...
she says sri lanka is flooding. all this flooding is good news because its bringing questionable characters together. she was implying that we are all very strange characters and being forced together by our environment.
when she says that i am in a partially flooded house. there is an asian woman and husband here. the woman comes out and realizes everything around me is flooding. i quickly swim to her because there is a giant and menacing alligator headed towards us. it even lets out a slow creaking growl. i pull my self out of the water and alert her to the alligators presence. we are trying to find highground, it seems the house is crumbling and sinking in the water. we take refuge on a dilapidated chimney. its churning out smoke and vibrating underneath us. for some reason its like we're on a ride because the chimney is not stationary... and it actually brings us at one point to the alligator. this alligator is huge. not larger than life, but very big and intimidating. it has yellow slits for eyes and you can feel its anger.
i wake up, its 4 am...

i think this dream has a lot to do with facing some unresolved emotions. theres been a theme of talking to different females from my past- someone whispering in my ear over the last couple of nights... a lot of sexual energy too.

i think the house further represents emotions and the sad state of affairs being something faced with another person, with outside forces creating the momentum to confront whatever it is needing confronted.

really interesting emphasis on meningitis and the flooding of sri lanka- flooding happening everywhere... and somehow it being a good thing. she mentioned that entire landmasses are being covered in water.

back to sleep

continued dreaming,
disturbing visions.

i went back to sleep and dreamt of my friend javier being forced to babysit and teach this child required curriculum with the woman demanding her unrealistic expectations be met. she basically wanted the child to do 4, 5 or 6 different things in a confined amount of time. it isn't enough time to learn anything.
i am helping javier by watching what is happening and suggesting we focus on the drawing aspect of the curriculum. we ask the child to draw, he is trying to draw the complete image on two separate pieces of paper, and we have to ask him to redraw it to fit on one. he draws a very good bat(the animal).

later i see my friends mom, tracy. except, her eyes are opened wide and lifeless. i am trying to stare into her eyes to see further. one of her eyes starts moving and looks at mine, only to start moving around on its own again. i am becoming confused and keep staring into the one somewhat life filled eye to understand why i cant see or feel her. finally i ask whats happening and i am being shown three people. one woman is holding her down while another man is raping her. there is a man off to the side slapping her with his penis saying, "keel! keel! keel!" over and over- until the other man climaxes inside her. i see her crying and distraught. the woman explains to me she has been poisoned and is dying a slow and agonizing death.
i wake up very groggy and concerned for my friends mom...

[Jitendra Hydonus]

You seem so fortunate to me... to be aware of so many of your nightly sojourns …and in detail. This life makes us recognize how little we know about the future and how little we remember of the past before we came here. But for most of us, even the night is a mystery we have barely uncovered. There is so much more to understand it is a bit overwhelming. Yet i also know there are many things in life that i have experienced that you have not. Isn't it fascinating in that sense? That we can share experiences with our friends that may have never had, nor perhaps even have this life. In that sense we can expand our own consciousness through the experiences of others, we trust and call our friends.

[guest587]

Steve, it's lovely insight you have there. And I see a hidden 14 in the deliverance.

I have been feeling a lot of this wonder lately, with many things in life.

And at the same time, I am in need of humbling my ego.

[guest587]

Crystal Skull

well there were a lot of details that i once again am having a really hard time recalling. it's like a, "tip of the tongue" effect.
i do remember in one scene seeing my grandpa, who is trying to help bag people at a grocery store of some sort. he had a stroke and he isn't doing the best with bagging. taking three items already bagged and double bagging. people don't understand his health problems. i am told everything was fine until they put him in a higher position. even though he is just bagging, there are too many people- too many demands, and he is unhappy doing this.

i remember also being on a train and even spending the night on it. i'm with a group heading to some destination. there's a scene where we are cooking food for these higher ups. we're more like in the lower caste system. a young man is preparing dinner and knocks my stuff off the table. i get mad and knock his stuff off. he gets the idea to tattle on me to these thug like characters. some kind of irish bully sheep herders. but what ends up happening is he gets himself in more trouble for tattling and making them come down to investigate, they both realize there's no issue and the food the kid thought he lost had actually been placed back on the table.

there's a scene about using the restroom and trying to keep things private.

before things start coming together there's one more scene where i am with people locked in a room and having to use electric wire, which we bunch together and heat to melt off some portion of metal on the door keeping us locked in.

later i am back on the train and i believe we have arrived to the destination. the time setting is very old timey cowboy western. i have been given a gift. three trinkets. two earrings, two different kind of bone/marrow and the last gift is a authenticated crystal skull. i am holding and investigating all three at a table with my peers. i tried piercing my ears to wear the gift, but i did not pierce my lobes and people tell me i made the piercing in the wrong spot. and so i decide not to sport the bone jewelry and say i'll wait for my ears to heal before piercing my lobes and wearing them.

the last gift is a small crystal skull. i am so impressed by the quality and the feel. and the skull itself is elongated at the top.  it was missing the bottom jaw, and the skull itself had a smooth feel, it wasn't that the entire thing was crystal- the skull was still yellow/white bone like but everything was smoother than the other bones i was gifted. it also came in some kind of container with a piece of paper explaining its authentication. the "crystal" was actually underneath the skull or embedded in it near the bottom- there was a miniature black pyramid like crystal and behind that was a beautiful jade(?) deep green crystal. it was mesmerizing. i passed it around the table to show everyone. people were very impressed. i am given the gift back at the end.

later i am getting high on the same train with people. i haven't smoked weed in ages and i didn't realize one of the cigars they were passing around was a blunt. i am inhaling quite liberally only to feel pretty handicapped by the end of it all, and i am finding things very funny. by the end of it i accidentally burn myself on my left shoulder and end up laughing about it.

[guest587]

Koan

I had an in-between dreams moment where I overheard two people having a conversation. The dream was about Koan. And one man told the other that there is energy centrally located on the back. Green pockets of energy. Most people are unaware of it.

Later I dream of an old friend eating roasted brown chicken with garlic bulbs. He has a bird disguise, in order to retrieve secrets from some mysterious sect. Like a scroll. Koan is a constant theme through out the night. His bird is red, and his machine isn't working correctly. Although he was disguised as a bird, he was beaten senseless by his own "robotics." I had to save him, as a blue bird, and remind him of the mission. I informed him the machine knocked him out.

There is a dream scene on the beach with my Dad and Sister. I believe the setting sun and the beautiful blues and varying amount of light were representative of a type of healing. There was a mound with little grass. My Dads Mom, Nanny- was there in Spirit. The mound with grass had shaded parts. Some spots were brighter than others. Some parts I could slide down to the edge and behold dark blue ocean.

As I was waking up I noticed the sounds of the rain outside were blending with my dreams. I still hadn't much control of my thoughts. The last thought I remember was a woman being unfaithful to a man, and she had the option to prolong his suffering and in her pleasure she took it at the last minute. This was a very gross thought and I decided enough is enough and it's time to wake up. Instantly I shake this thought off, but figured I'd include even the undesirable moments in my journal.

I believe I will shake all these dreams off now and start my day.