Yes we separated a long while ago. I suppose there's still some unprocessed emotions. It was a pleasant experience with her in my dream.
It is good when you can appreciate others who have gone out of your life and what the relationships meant for both of you.
A practice I try to engage in and a belief I would like to live out...
I just want to love, especially women in a intimate sense. Whoever comes I want to give my all. If they go, I will move on and keep loving. It's not always easy to move on. So when I get in funks I try to remember all the qualities of the other person I loved, rather than the qualities that created toxicity. In this way there's an element to "us" and to the other person that is admirable. Holding the admiration in my mind is far more rewarding than looking at the world through a lens of anger and mistrust.
It may be that I forget misdeeds, and may be that I have to learn them again... But for now, in the present, I would rather be smiling than crying. LOL
