Message #40641

[Jitendra Hydonus]

At the same time I found myself identifying with everything during meditation. I found that I am the discord and I am the agreement. That I am the upset energy and that I am the forgiving energy. That I am the neighbor enjoying loud rock and roll. That I am the other neighbor tiredly getting home from work and wheeling the trash can inside the house. That I am the energy swirling around my neighborhood- that I am sitting in calm repose, I am the leaf falling from my tree- the bug accidentally being squished and dying... I have been all these things- am all these things, and also none of these things... At one with my environment, and other times- in complete rebellion.

It was a practice that allowed me to accept and be present, which feels most important.

You would get along fine with the 10 moods of Dr. Kook !!! A psychologist would call what you are describing as ‘cognitive dissonance’. Interesting that what one can call awareness another can call personality dysfunction..

For your entire view point…