Message #40231

[guest587]

Just logging this here... Had an 1111 moment with a bumper sticker. I witnessed a lot today that caused me to reach out to my truer self... Which I kind of think meditation does to some extent.

Around lunch time, just as I was preparing to leave work, I watched my coworker break down when the devastating news hit that her best friends daughter had passed. This was like her family. I watched my coworkers daughter come to mourn with their Mother together in the back of our store.

Two hours later I went to a wedding. I watched one of my good friends and his now wife wed for their first time. As I left I realized I went from really sad feelings to roaring laughter and merriment.

I made an internal alignment with the value of family. "Permanence" was the word the pastor said that sent chills up and down my spine and in my arms. I knew I was to pay attention. I realized in loss and gain what stood out was the love. Love is present in both loss and gain. We can experience it with our family, our community. There was something about togetherness that transcended the moment. I felt the higher energy in both up and down.

On the car ride home I decided I'd go to the grocery store to buy some corn bread. Yup, I wanted some corn bread with lentil soup. I called my Aunt and we talked about the day. I just wanted to reach out to her, and felt a desire to try harder with my family unit. With my life in general. As we were discussing we started talking about spirituality. My Aunt mentioned the words, "God" and "Life" and I realized as I was driving a car in front of me had a bumper sticker. There were two words larger than the rest of it- at my distance and the fact that it was slightly raining outside and dark- I could only make out the two words. "God" and "Life" I noticed this right as my Aunt was saying the words her self. I decided to share this alignment with her.

From the grocery store my Mom called. She was distraught. She was asking for help, I had to get Dad and meet her. Apparently my Mom called the EMS on a family friend- she's getting older and starting to go, "downhill." I stayed until everything was sorted out.

Home now. Everything is okay...

It's not a traditional meditation, but these events have created a feeling of internalization/withdraw of the senses and a connecting with a deeper self.