Yes.
Decades long in my life, I thought that religion would be helpful for my own 'spiritual' growth. Coming towards the ageing phase latterly, I have realized none of it really matters on the outside. Did dive deep into the Kriya yoga meditation technique from India. Had that kundalini awakening. Breathlessness. And deathlessness hoped for, but never ever encountering any silver-bearded God figure, at all. Except for the masters of Kriya yoga appearing scarcely and a few times, even tutoring me in person.
In hindsight, years awakened haven't changed me all that much, as ageing has with a body becoming frailer. What remains is a breath to take - the final one - to view the other side of the "Rio Grande" ...and perhaps a few more years accompanying my youngest daughter in becoming self-sufficient.
All the rest is TRUST in the Universe and God.
I am recognizing the mistakes in the sadhana of devotees around me in my observations and not the mistakes in my own. I’m needing much more devotion in my development. There are so many distracting sensory experiences that still excite me and distracting thoughts as well.
My meditation jumped to a much higher level years ago after I included the practice of Kriya. I think though, to nurture a higher degree of devotion, I’m going to need to start asking for it from the Master’s of Kriya themselves. When I was writing this I had a de Ja Vu experience as if I witnessed in a table of contents of my life’s events, this chapter emerging.
I have attempted to listen to Shri Guruji several times UWE and will again. Does he ever come to the states? I sense he has something important to say here, for me as well. His accent is very strong and difficult to make out, but I will listen from time to time, picking up more at after hearing, where I left off. He mentions divine mother in the recording you provided, Jesus, Krishna and St. Francis. Divine Mother is incarnate this time period in the physical form of Amma. She has helped my devotion development tremendously. Still I have much to do before passing this incarnation. One has to be in love to feel love. But there are so many kinds of love. Feeling God’s love gives one tremendous devotion, but one has to keep that devotion and love ever new.
Mātā Amritānandamayī (born Sudhamani Idamannel; 27 September 1953), often known as Amma ("Mother"), is an Indian Hindu spiritual leader, guru and humanitarian, ... - wikipedia
Thanks for your posts, guys!
After reading them, one thing first and foremost comes to my mind. It is what my teacher told me,
"You should never expect to have complete silence in your surroundings and atmosphere. When you try to meditate, you have to learn to focus by practicing the Kriya techniques with your best love and devotion. Devotion is the most important part. It is the key to the universe. Once you've managed to do that - and this is not easy - you can go into the deepest meditation anywhere, in busy places or even on Times Square." - I paraphrase his words here as I remember them from many years ago.
Peace and Love to you guys.
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