Eric
Im not so sure that my recent experiences with regard to yours are so important as yours. So it is wonderful to hear all your recent experiences and revelations, as they have been unfolding. If I find something that I believe may contribute to what you have gone through; I will let you know.
This is my current perspective; I think sometimes it is helpful to not say so much that may inhibit the growth another person may experience, and finding ourselves being muted by circumstances can be not only humbling but helpful to the unfolding process taking place. Sometimes the less said the better. It can give another person the opportunity to express hidden feelings, experiences and thoughts, that is most likely the case and my lesson for this whole situation. I also have found that like the experiences that for instance Sri Yukteswar had with Babaji…. I have had similar experiences in that I should look at a Masters blocking my thoughts and remembering certain events as sometimes a blessing in disguise…
to let circumstances unfold in a positive way that may otherwise be interpreted as a negative contribution to the development of another person’s revelations and understanding. I also have found recently that the present mood and thoughts we have may not be a lasting impression, because after we reread what a friend has written we may see things in a different light and have a much different attitude.
~ Jitendra ( Steve Hydonus )
Steve. I had a dream early this morning that I saw Yogananda. I believe he was doing some Kriya, it was a colorized photo. It was so vibrant, more colorful than the dream itself. And what really blew my mind, was this vivid rainbow colored serpent taking crescent shape above and around Yogananda. It was like his Aura. I also saw Anandamayi Ma. Really cool is, my family was involved in this dream and they seem to be aware of these Saints on some subconscious level.
Regarding my encounter with the fellow. Someone wrote to me some very helpful advice.
...Dayna from the galactic travel channel...
"Sorry about your near violent confrontation with that individual. You have a wonderful light about you. Perhaps that is what triggered him? In my experience with soul retrieval (very limited unfortunately), I've found that my light can either be a trigger for those stuck in the 'darkness' of their own mind or it can bring them out of their delirium. Sounds like this man was one of those who got triggered. I think when they see our light that the trigger comes from a moment of recognition of the light in themselves and this is very scary for someone who has denied it for so long. So, perhaps think of this encounter as you doing what you are here to do - showing others their own light by being the light that you are. In the long-run, you gave this man a glimpse of himself, even if he wasn't yet ready to see it. "
I'm sharing this because this feels like an 1111 moment as well. When I read her reply I felt moved, and I recognized that this man was also showing me an aspect of myself. Suddenly I felt Spirit showing me the anger I've directed at others in this life, suddenly some of my more violent dreams of recent started making sense, and I had the thought that in a past life I may have had a lot of rage. Just now I am remembering a dream with my Father where we murdered other people with swords.
As you know I have a thread asking about family Karma and spiritual evolution. It makes me think I may have been this angry and fearful person in a past life. The Lord also knows I have exhibited this anger and fear in this life.
So... 1111 can also be a mirror. And what we think to be the present compared to an intelligence not bound to time as we are, might mean communicating aspects of ourselves long forgotten or not yet realized.
It was also a humbling experience... I feel a great increase in my community. And yet, I know... Deep down, I feel something warning me not to move so fast that I don't allow others to contribute- or that I might be detached from reality. And reality, as you can see, can be quite sobering at times.
I suppose that's why the Masters teach us that inner peace and joy are something separate from the highs and lows of this world.
I feel okay carrying the conversation on. I see it as relating to 1111. I hope you feel welcomed to contribute too, should you have a change of Heart or perspective.
.... What was your 1111 moment about that started all this? I can't remember. Was it an acknowledgment of your inner world?
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I also recognize that when others lash out with their emotional disturbances, while God is in them, it does not mean I must endure the abuse. And the reminder that there is a layer of ignorance, where we mistake our identity with our personal desires and the like- that means there is a separation between God and personality. So that such displays of unsettling actions are not from Beloved God but from a personality drowning in Maya. Not a negative thing, we are all here in Maya to learn.
At times nations are also in this predicament. They do not need to endure the abuse of other nations near them that lash out, when those nations also are drowning in Maya, there is no choice but to defend our friends from such attacks and abuse.
Even through our enemies, God tests us. Isn’t this so? ~Paramahansa Yogananda
