Message #40289

[guest587]

Thank you Steve for having a space for members to express themselves. I have had the freedom to express my spiritual interest and unique experiences here over the years- it has been very therapeutic writing and ruminating. I hope more members feel encouraged to take advantage of this free therapy.

I see my old desires are aligned with my current, how to be a fatherly figure in my community.

I've let things like lust and bullheadishness get in the way... Observing the mind is another practice that proves beneficial, if we're willing to listen. Meditation or even, coming out here to write on your forum while the sun sets and the atmosphere is quiet, is a way to calm restless peeks.

Though I can't say what is the cause of restlessness I can say that shallow desires tend to manifest from the stirrings of an eager or restless mind.
Swami Vidyadhishananda has said restlessness stems from a type of anxiety and a need to be entertained.

I can agree I have lived out desires in relationships and have been the catalyst for others as well- whether that means recognizing a pattern that needed breaking or learning something about our selves in the process. Whether in harmony or discord, there is always an opportunity for understanding. I know I seek harmony over discord. I recognize it isn't always going to be that way.

A lot has happened these past two weeks... Dreams, synchronicities, real loss and real matrimony. No I'm not the one who was married. Just that I've witnessed and experienced a lot in such a short time. I hope to share a little when I can- I'm just not sure how to go about piecing it all together yet.