Message #20666

[guest88]

i got angry last night and gave into it and got other people involved. it was a mess, i was pretty foolish

growing up my mom and sister used to tell me i have anger problems

a buddhist monk told me i have deep-seeded anger issues that may cause me to lose those closest to me

admitting i have an anger problem has been hard to face, im usually quite content and find it difficult to pin point the origins of the anger. holding it in though doesn't necessarily help and not doing anything makes me feel weak thus a momentary satisfaction in lashing out

followed by some regret

recognizing this is a step but not sure what more to do other then try to regain control which can be hard to do sometimes
i know i need more discipline which i'm practicing