Hmmm. I am attracted to many times and places, but have no actual knowledge of having been alive in any one of them. Scottish highlands, during the time of Culloden - but that may be because my current heritage comes from there. France - especially the Cathars in Medieval times; I feel a real affinity for that region/group, but again that can be traced to today. I once started weeping uncontrollably watching a documentery on Burmese Monks - during the time they were being slaughtered. It was very weird, but the material was also very sad - so it could have just been the violence of it. The Cheyenne people. I have a vague memory/fantasy of dying in a desert, looking up over my shoulder at the sun then floating up into it. Also, an impression of a castle or large stone building - a friend sitting in an open windowframe smiling at me with deep affection - the sun highlighting his hair, beard. That scene always reminds me of my husband. Maybe it was him.
. Other than that, odd sensations - like a vague memory of lying on cold stone or concrete with sun coming through an opening above me, sunlight through forest trees. A lot of these impressions include sunshine in some form. For a long time I had an aversion to India. A strong one. Then Yogananda appeared on my scene, and I got over it. Ha ha.
You have left quite lot of people, places and times to think about. i have always had a difficult time relatng to any of the 'kingdoms' of Europe. i always totally rejected them and find it very difficult to believe that for instance today in England; the people would actually even tolerate a family thinking that they are some how more privileged then others because they were born into a certain gene pool. It is really a type of racism since those 'below' them are not as 'important'. They may have the same skin color but have a purer blood type. Rite? Snobs!
The Cathars in France brought and immediate interest since they represented part of the gnostic movement. i have always thought that such early Christian movements represented a truer version of the message of Christ. But ofcourse they were always persecuted by main stream Christianity. Which is why it is best for many of us to totally reject conventional Christianity.
You and i both seem to have a latent interest in Buddhism. That is nice. i was involved with getting a couple of Buddhist Meditation groups off the ground. i also feel a strong support for the buddhists of Tibet who have been treated so cruel by the Chinese. How can we ever trust a government that destroys its own spirituality and religious traditions?
Interestingly enough i wrote a song about Cheyenne and the Cheyenne called 'Flurries in Cheyenne'. The trail of tears and the early Indians plight.... their spirituality has always been of interest to me.... Way back from the days of reading Carlos Castaneda and exploring my natural affinity to the Americas before being colonized.
i wonder if the cold concrete may have been in the Egyptian or Mayan periods. Not too many forests in Egypt that i know of though. Perhaps the early Americans had places like this or the Celts.
Aversions to places.... in yours; India may have to do with difficult experiences in those countries.
It is nice that you seem to still feel something for your husband and have not resorted to negative emotions towards him. That is a spiritual quality you can be proud of if you can continue it throughout this time in your life.
i talked to a friend last nite who has visual flashes of past lives. i have had that happen. Like a whole scene opens up to your inner gaze. You have a 'vision'. When it happens it is as though you have a break thru of some sort because if for instance you are with some one thinking of them or talking to them---- you get a grasp of what they are about. What they have done with you in the past and what you are encountering with them in the present. Bringing our interest in such subjects out in the open often draws people and places to you that help in an understanding of the past and why it has led you here to work out issues and help others that you have been with before.
The significance of the Sun which you have often seen in these experiences interests me. The Sun is the key to life's cosmic rays flowing thru us and those rays that we manifest transforming our reality. In your case your Sun being quite active in Scorpio in the house of service and health. Sun shining thru the forest trees: These are days to remember....sitting under a tree meditating. Walking with a friend or alone in the woods! Sometimes in our visions we do not always look backward but forwards as well!
