Message #29887

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Steve,
I had a thought today, after reading your reply, that progress isn't necessarily a linear experience. Those same disturbing vibrations are something we ourselves are capable of and at times, our attention to our practices and loftier goals become a thing of little to no interest. Whether the pull of Life is grabbing us and asking us to reassess our current model of perception or whether one might consider these moments as bouts of Spiritual Amnesia, we are also engrossed by the Ego and similarly not immediately aware of our sometimes regrettable course of action. I agree with your sentiments on the blessings to be found in particular relationships. I have discovered very kind friends that are responsive and make an effort to better themselves and I know because I desire the same that this is why I might be around such inspiring people. The truth is God is to be found in everyone, even the seemingly unkind- though they may not be presently aware of their own greatness, there are blessings for such interactions. I am happy to be able to let go because all we are holding on to at this point are thoughts and emotions, a playback of unresolved and unfulfilled desires and when we practice letting go of these attachments by the practice of directing our awareness in meditation- the liberating effect it has on helping us move on from the past, now severed, connections become recognizable as a beautiful aura of peace or understanding envelops us. If we can maintain our practices, we can forgive our transgressions and others and honor the God within with gratitude for the opening of our Hearts by the grace of a living Spirit. Murshid Inayat Khan speaks in the back of my mind and reminds me that sorrow is an immediate heart-opener, we accept the poison Life can offer as a blessing- Suffering leading ultimately to liberation. 
Jai Guru.