Message #7356

[Jitendra Hydonus]

are you saying you've come to see this in you all along? i used to think i wanted to become something more but am finding i am that already. i still believe there is something more but life reveals to me what i need. lately i've stopped trying to be something and instead just am, whatever that may be.   

i feel like we are shadows walking thru a film. We see very little of what we are. We are like actors that do not know are parts. That something more; i have seen in an avatar like Amma. i immediately recognized that she is much, much further along then i. Until we come face to face with the presence of God it is hard for us to recognize just how much we delude ourselves. What i see myself as, or what i just am is not what i thought i 'just was' 35 years ago. Even though, even then i was 'just being' in my own way. After many years of confronting reality in the form of others and my own illusions i found that i have much further to go on this path of just 'being'. 'What ever that may be' is the accumulation of our spiritual effort up to this point and most importantly; the grace we receive on our spiritual journey. But the possibilities are limitless. This is a humbling experience to only start realizing.

Jitendra