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Hey Steve and everyone,

Sorry I had accidentally deleted my account was in the middle of doing to many things at once!! Opps!! That will teach me to pay more attention to what i am doing!! LOL

Anyways, I said this before to Steve that I am always here for him and the forum and i always keep my word!! Sorry I have been quiet at times but i been dealing with a lot the past 2 years and had to step aside at times to focus on the shoulder and everything else!!

This forum will always feel like home to me!! I just want to thank Steve for his friendship and support over the years!! I like to thank Katze for her friendship and support too!!! :) You both are my oldest friends on the Internet and i feel very blessed to have you both in my life!! :)

Time to rebuild my post count up!! LOL  ;D

Hugs

Comet

Thank~You for the sweet note ○● Looks as though I  may need to b in your presence to change your classification.
Oh well we will figure it out. When i went to your settings it asks to affirm your password and to correct your email address.
It shows your email address to b alfred hitchcock. Didn't know u cared Comet!  :D Or has he infiltrating your settings
as a spoof?  ???  Ha Ha Yet when I go to your profile on the site I see the proper email. Since when has Alfred entered your life?  :'(

HAHA!!! Thanks Steve!!! Strange things happen!!! LOL Just gotta learn to do one thing at a time on the internet!! Was trying to update my profile not delete it!! Laughing at myself here!! LOL  ;D

Sometimes we mistrust and still are able to act kind. It happens with new relationships. Were cautious.
The old ones just kind of hang out like a shirt tail and we often say things that we regret later. We often lick our
wounds till feeling unfettered we come back in the realization that others miss us. We miss quite a few we haven't
seen in a while. We all have our momentary lapse from reason. It often helps us understand ourselves from the inside out.

Yet I am so happy that we are hearing more from Namaste2All and Prabhatsina.

That is true Steve!!! I am very cautious and my guard has been up maybe it is time to let it down a little!! I feel comfortable here and it is nice to be on a forum where i am not judged for everything i say!! In these situations we realize who is important to us and to treasure the moments they are with us!!! I'm always gonna be here!! :)

Yes people come and go in our lives. There something that stands out special about some people who stick around thru thick and  thin !

Yes that is true!!! That is when we find out who are true friends are!!! :)

Is that you Comet? I thought I heard an echo. I guess I need to be sure. Lately my voice seems to just go out in the emptiness.
Sometimes it feels so lonely filled in a planet of people. I have been had so many times that I just look for a little kindness
now and then nothing more.  I still do get it in some people but so many relationships evaporate in the heat of challenges. To me those friends just took themselves too seriously. There is something that is light and lasting about love that forgives those differences. I am trying to fix the leak of frustration that betrays my calm attempts at being loving. Would it make a difference if they loved me like I still love them? But how could they when I call out to them and hear only silence? I keep going back to the silence of my own heart in which something speaks to me. It isn't easy but it does speak to me when there is no reply from the outside. It has given me so much over the years that I know it will be there again. Sometimes when I least
expect it.... it returns.

LOL!! Yes that is me!!! Yes it can feel lonely at times!!! I agree certain relationships do evaporate in the heat of challenges but not me!! I don't scare that easily!! I know people need to lighten up some!! With online friendships lack emotions so you can't tell when the person is kidding or not and that creates a lot of misunderstands!! I've learned to lower my expectations on others too!! That helps too cause that way they won't disappoint us!!

Sometimes it's hard for people to love others!! I have set up a lot of boundaries after getting burned online over the years just when i think i figure the person out they do a complete 180!! LOL

I am a very independent, strong person and i am my own best friend i rarely have time to get lonely!! Took me awhile to get to this point! Strongest i been in years!! Starting to let the guard down a little and just go with the flow and have fun but i am aware of my surroundings too!!

Like i said Steve hang in there!! Real friends always comes back!!!

((hugs))

Comet

 :)  Language is so limiting sometimes. I don't remember saying I am lonely. But I am not here to deny anything someone may
pick up. I believe all human beings have something inside them that makes them feel unsatisfied and wanting more out of life.
We can feel lonely in a relationship or a crowd of people. I define it as being thrown into a world without any knowledge of
why we are here, where we came from, where we are going or how we can get out.

Some people just walk back an forth from an ant hill, get their food drink and sleep, socialize and say that's that. But they too will die. Is there no way to find out about this mystery we call life? This kind of loneliness is a deep longing to understand our place and purpose in the universe.

On a personal level I understand completely about people taking a 180 degree on us. It seems to me that if a person evolves to the point that he or she is trying to be spiritual and kind that there would be an understanding that when we abandon others
completely for long periods of time there are consequences. When someone shuns or abandons us we can look back and see
the simple equation. We at one time did it to someone else.But the obvious is not always perceived.

On another level people live a very different life on the internet than being in person. I have found that people who say all kinds
of things in pm's and on forums may change quite rapidly when the inevitability of meeting in person becomes a reality.
This can change a relationship. Yet should it end relationships? I understand people go and do return Comet. Yet there is often
a very insecure feeling I have about these relationships because you never know when these people will leave your life again.
These are just observations not the end all or final outlook. I hope this added to the conversation you are having with me Comet.
I am sorry if I lost track of the subject.Maybe it doesn't even matter. Sometimes people just connect for a while.i am happy
for that. But when we disconnect we often wonder: Why? I really try to answer that question for others so it does not leave
them in a quandary.

I never said you were lonely i was just agreeing with you!! Yes we can feel lonely in a crowd of people i been there!! I prefer to walk alone too!! I am always my own person!!

That is true!! There comes a time where we gotta walk this journey alone too we just gotta accept that and focus on ourselves!!

Who knows what is going on in their lives!! All we gotta do is just cherious the time they are with is!!!


Yes i know people live different lives off the internet!! I found the same type of things in people! I don't feel it should end relationships i guess it depends on the situation!! I know a lot has to do with feeling insecure! My guard is up high these days still learning who i can trust and who i can't!! I feel the same way cause i had similar situations with online friendships!!


No worries Steve!! Yes I agree they should at least tell us why instead of keeping us hanging that is a huge pet peeve on mine! Maybe it is one of God's UnAnswered Prayers too telling us maybe it's best we don't know!! Who knows the reason this is why i don't get too close to online friendships these days!! I made some awesome online friendships and still have them so like i said it depends on the situation and what is going on with us and them!!  :)

Thank You for spending so much time on my posts.You also brought up the subject of boundaries.
Life is full of boundaries. From the lines on the highway to property lines to lines we
establish in relationships. What we want out of the relationship and what we do not want.
They often determine whether or not we accept a relationship with someone else or
whether they accept a relationship with us and to what extent and what kind of
relationship! 

This can be quite a topic in itself. We often find that are partner or friend
wants something very different than we do out of a relationship. I choose not to use
the word boundary so much as agreement. Relationships come to an agreement
of how they can function. In some relationships they are even unspoken for a long
time. They just seem to work out naturally without all the talk and negotiation.
Others require much more talk because the two involved have a different
perspective or may have even changed their outlook.

Sometimes I get confused about what is stated on the forum and it is best to take people
at their face value till you learn that you can not. Often people hint at things and you may
need to have it said perfectly clear. Just some thoughts here Comet. One thing leads to another.
I thought about starting a separate subject called boundaries but than realized that your
title oooops! covers it perfectly! HaHa

Hope I didn't make a big deal of being lonely. Maybe its something I need to look at.
Its nice when people admit they may have erred or have something to learn. Otherwise
relationships get rigid and calcified. They can reach a stalemate. I was so happy to
hear you make the comment that maybe you should let your guard down a bit. It showed
me that you're willing to look at things differently if need be.

Your welcome Steve!! Yes that is the trouble with Boundaries and why i have been starting to let my guard down a little! Sometimes we need to set them to focus on ourselves but then we also miss the best part of friendships if we do that too! I am still learning!!

I agree!! That is why i am slowly starting to remove the boundaries!! I've had friendships that just ease their way back naturally too after long periods of times!! Things work out if it's meant to be i have accepted that!!!

I get confused at times too or read the post wrong! Hard to tell how people are feeling on the internet! LOL on the Opps!!


Steve i never said you were lonely i was just agreeing with you!! Nothing to do with you!! If I am wrong i will admit it!! Yes i have changed my opinion on a few things that is why i am still here and always will be!!

Ms. Comet Lettuce not squabble over small stuff. No doubt you are aware
of the predictament.

Our friend Mr. Hydonus is in denial about his issue with loneliness. He is suffering from Fantasy Overload and Sensory Deprivation. This has lead to him feeling left high and dry. I am suggesting mild stimulation to the lower extremities and shock treatment to the frontal lobes. There are many big fish in the sea. Why settle for minnows? What is your profesional opinion on this Ms. Comet?

Hi Please don't tell me what do to or say!!!  Do not read more into Steve unless you personally know him!!! Steve is a friend and a great guy!! That is my opinion!! :)

Comet is that you ?   :D  i think I must have the wrong number. Maybe it's to early in the morning... I just woke up. I feel wonderful. Dr. Kook must have cleared out my nasal passages!

 ;)

Cheers dear friend. ♡♥ YOU ARE VERY KIND. I would not be concerned about our kooky doctor. He's pullin' your leg.
《I am fortunate to have you as a friend Comet.》 ☆★

Steve

I have given a lot of thought to us....we have known each other on the internet for years and years and on different sites.
Our friendship seems to just get better and better. Boundaries at this point just keep us as internet friends. We have functioned great that way. Relationships of any kind are somewhat of a gamble.

At one time I had thought seriously about moving back to the midwest. Some friends here on the forum could have
persuaded me but they are gone for now and the kindness of others has kept me in California for now. My life seems
to take me where I find I am most needed and it is most meaningful for me.

Communication is very important to me. When people stop communicating it is a fair assumption that they have lost interest.
I work non stop but I still communicate with friends. If someone communicates with me and wants to see me I make an effort
to see them. But travel is expensive. Last time I went to Michigan I spent in the thousands. Who wants to do that unless you know someone wants to see you. They show this thru action and communication.

Namaste2All has been communicating alot with me and I told him I would like to see him. I say the samething to you. It may be
awhile till we can arrange it but if you really want to see someone it probably will happen...such is the power of thought.
well I must go now...hope this all makes sense.

steve

Hot tamales! I've never pulled a leg I didn't like! he he! he!

                           De Kooky Doctur

Nomaste2all It is very kind of you to spend time with us typing away when I realize you are on the computer all day because of your job. We all have unique spiritual paths yet I feel as though you understand my individual path better than any other friend. I suppose I have been blessed with friends from different paths to gain an expanded view of spirituality.

It has struck me as peculiar that some friends will only communicate by phone, others only on the internet and then still others by personally being with them.  It is what it is. What made it that way is a long past. I just recognize that you really can't know someone just one way alone.  It is something to be aware of in these fragmented relationships of  modern conveniences.

I see time as an element of this reality that reshapes personality. Given time we adjust our views to be more considerate and
understanding. In prison people are placed their to let them think over their presumed crimes. In a way we are all prisoners.
Prisoners of time. Time is a limitation that is always placed on us in this reality. Meditation can often give the feeling of timelessness. Timelessness and bliss are two sides of the same coin. Bliss gives the feeling of being beyond the confines of time.

Perhaps what you are saying is that we just can't really rely on others till they are anchored in the divine. It has been a
struggle Namaste2All. I really would like to understand those who vanish out of our lives. Perhaps someday I will. In the meantime it
is important to recognize those who will always be there and be grateful for them is what I want to practice. I believe this has become my favorite thread by Comet...oops! ooooooooouuufff! whhhooaaa! Ha Ha Ha Comet! and thanks for your thoughts Namaste2All. I will try to keep them in my awareness.

Its a strange thing Comet but lately I have found that the boundaries that people put up have told me so much about them
that I was fortunate that the boundaries they set were there.... I may
have otherwise been a part of their personal nite mares. The more boundaries they had--the more one dimensional their thinking. And ...the more crazy they are as a result!

For me (not that it need apply to others)-- I try being spontaneous about relationships and remain open to the unexpected. I can always set boundaries along the way if they are necessary but I wouldn't want my personal problems from the past to limit relationships in the present  because of boundaries which have no relevance to present situations. I would rather give people
the benefit of the doubt. Every situation is a new one. Just when we think we've got it figured out someone comes along to give
a new twist on things.


Jitendra