When the time is right I may be initiated into Kriya. I believe sincerity is to be developed, overall, before that moment. By making the bed a routine I just meant practicing discipline- something I believe is needed to free ones self from unwanted behavior or, when trying to bring about a lifestyle change.
Yes the routine of doing kriya has become quite routine to me. No inspiration is necessary. I just do it like eating exercise or sleeping. It is now part of my every day life. It came with a little light that went off in my brain and I finally recognized after some time of meditating on my own that it just wasn’t getting me anywhere and I needed help to settle my mind. At the time I remember thinking to myself; this kriya yoga is the only technique I have ever had that actually gave me a break from thinking and some blissful moments in meditation. For that I will never forget and whatever I do or however I feel or however I fall I will come back to the practice of kriya.
I know I have messed my own life up at times and to some extent the lives of others but I also have had the realization that if I come back to kriya I will be returning to where I need to be. Sometimes while witnessing life go by me the only hope for an anchor and reality check is to return to the guidance of the gurus and the methods they have given to stay in tune; in my case that is kriya yoga. I suppose the reason for that is that it showed me it is possible to be happy even though the pain of this world and the people I have met in it is ever a reminder that happiness in this reality just never lasts and is met by many disappointments.
