I too share this feeling about nature. When walking for example with my son on the beach, off-season, I look at the sea and can imagine with no effort that it is just the background of a video game and the thought goes to the programmer of the video game, automatically. This world is clearly a simulation.
My instinct would be to sit and meditate, although I can't do that now. I used to do that when I was younger, with no bonds of family or relationships.
This may be a shot in the dark mccoy but I would like to give you what came to my mind when thinking of you today. Perhaps 🤔 one of the reasons life has turned into this for you…. It may be to help you develop compassion towards those having to ‘take care’ of others with less ability then themselves. The ‘welfare state’ is not as easy at it is often thought of by many people and is an important service of society to those less fortunate then ourselves. Just a thought and perhaps not appreciated or applicable.
