What I have found is that some people come back into our life and tell us somehow they have changed. Yet they slide back into the roles that they have put us in. But perhaps this is not all a one way ride. We ourselves may temporarily change but given circumstances may also comfortably put us back in the old suits we wore.
I think it is possible that you may also recognize some of your past karma, as I have when chasing after some fleeting attractions. The clash with reality you may encounter, could possibly be similar scenarios you set up with others in the distant past and now they are being served to you presently as they have myself. It most likely does not always occur to us that we have played opposite sex roles in other lives so now we are seeing it from a male role instead of the female role we may have created for our future karma now taking place in the present.
I have found that when I spent time with Amma I often brought friends with me. And often those times were quite chaotic as I look back on them. So I would have to say that if my friends we’re not ready for the energies of the Master I would say that I experienced disillusioning times with them that gave me a recognition of just where they we’re on the spiritual map. Perhaps its to help us realize where we and others are at on the ‘map of consciousness’ And those experiences have come to help us grow.
I’m beginning to realize that unless I go to India I may not be with the Master in the flesh this lifetime again. That is a concern of mine. Eric;I also have much more to share with you regarding my experiences with other people while visiting and after visiting Amma. They were not all dissolutions but they were all eventful! So in my case I will say that the karma she ‘speeded up’ certainly helped me size up my relationships with those close to me who saw Amma with me. It is also apparent to me that some of the spiritual lessons I encountered while seeing Amma are now playing out in my life in rapid succession and revealing to me just what my relationships limits and boundaries are with those close to me who saw Amma as I brought them and invited them along. It is a very amazing insight.
This is similar to what I feel are fantasies. That other people who reject our fantasies help highlight that we are indeed motivated by Ego than seeing reality as it is.
I have had such an instance in pursuing a physical attraction. I had rose-colored glasses. But it's is like a game after all and if you don't play your cards right there go your chances. Nature teaches me it is a dance and these drives are normal... but perhaps I should be looking for more genuine connections than just physical ones? I still want the physical excitement.
It also interest me, your observation about Masters. It seems whenever I visit a Master- while I am comforted by their presence- shortly afterwards I go through some kind of conflict. My friend says this is the master speeding up our karma. In other words, it isn't always sunshine and roses.
