Jealousy or Envy?

[Jitendra Hydonus]

en·vy
[ˈenvē]
NOUN
a feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck:
"she felt a twinge of envy for the people on board"
synonyms:
jealousy · enviousness · covetousness · desire · [more]
VERB
desire to have a quality, possession, or other desirable attribute belonging to (someone else):
"he envied people who did not have to work on weekends" · [more]
synonyms:
be envious of · be jealous of · begrudge · grudge · be resentful of


jeal·ous·y
[ˈjeləsē]
NOUN
the state or feeling of being jealous:
"a sharp pang of jealousy" · [more]
synonyms:
envy · enviousness · covetousness · desire · resentment · resentfulness · bitterness · discontent · spite · grudge · suspicion · suspiciousness · distrust · mistrust · doubt · insecurity · anxiety · [more]

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Recently I have thought about some of my life long attitudes and attributes that may keep me coming back to the earth plain after this life. I really do not feel bitterness over other peoples good fortune but rather envy over their experiences and life opportunities.

I must say though that having the benefit of the gurus in my life will always be more of a blessing than any material or creative accomplishments in life. I always remind myself that is the outcome of the happiness that I have witnessed most my life that rises above most conditions I’ve experienced.