Message #33685

[guest88]

Thank you Steve,

I definitely need to find something that can be sustainable-career oriented. I've overstayed my time with my Parents, and sometimes it feels like the one job I work full time at really drains my life. I get so negative there I make mistakes.

Other times it's okay, and I know it's little things- like the energies I work with- the environment is cramped and the labor is pulling. The personalities are kind, but many times off-tempered. It's a small business and I don't see a future there where I can pay rent and the current bills I am struggling to maintain. I know starting elsewhere means starting over, hopefully I can find a salary styled job and have off on the weekends.

Yesterday on my drive home a crazed woman pursued me in her car. You'd think it'd be because of my bad driving but no, I was driving normal and in my own lane. It seems whenever I get in these negative attitudes I draw a lot of unwanted attention. Both at work or on the road. I've had a man stalk me in his car because he was angry at something else. Yesterday the girls I work with noticed my somber and quiet attitude and they tried to tell me they would hate to have to let me go. I wouldn't care if I had a steady job lined up elsewhere. They aren't all that bad, I just feel like this is not for me.

Anyways. Sorry to ramble. Did you call me today? I got an unknown number from Michigan. I will say this- whenever I am taking care of my self with a little bit of discipline and feeling in tune with my Will power- I have a completely different attitude about my environment and am able to work through all the little things that eat at me.

I had a dream last night I was trying to clean out a cylindrical structure the size of a forearm that had two petrified bats inside it.