yesterday, with the black crocodile dream- i fell back asleep and was in a surreal land. i am going to share that dream before sharing tonights because i believe they are all connected. i wont share everything- but just the strange land:
and something i also don't think can be easily understood is that- during this dream, i am having additional dreams. i am basically dreaming two things at once, what i call multi-layered dreams. one layer will be, for instance, me at my house noticing a mosquito. while at the same time, i am dreaming of being at an airport and of people moving about.
so i am sharing yesterdays dream as it relates to the course of the last few nights- which i believe i had a visitor. i do think the black crocodile is a scary aspect of myself. i am being confronted with aspects of self, but at the same time, with the assistance of beings we do not ordinarily perceive. that is my belief.
i do manage to fall back asleep. it's a quest-adventure. it's the last thing i dream before waking up. this is one of those instances where i'm having multiple dreams- two layers, two different worlds. the quest-adventure is its own layer/world. then there's a dream more true to life as it relates to my bedroom and my house.
i'm in a special land, you can't be there too long. it's like an observatory, and the sky above us is rotating much faster than normal. there are stars and yet it is daylight. this place makes you forgetful. it started as a mission to retrieve, something... and someone is here with me- they remind me,
"i don't like this place."
"you can't spend too much time here."
and when i ask why, he shows me that the time he spent thinking- 20 years have passed.
"i can revert back, if i concentrate hard enough."
and although he had aged 20 years, he reverts back to his youthful appearance.
i am starting to forget why i'm here, but i must retrieve this special gold box. too much time has passed, i can't go back. there is hope- a young brother appears, he is our salvation and chance at returning. he is, "a hope for tomorrow" made incarnate. i am pleading with him, crying. he tells me i am his favorite brother. i tell him the same. but i suddenly remember i must grab the golden box. i take him with me and we find a wall of gold, there are many boxes here.
i am to find the symbol- while i'm here i suddenly have servants. they're like the skesis from the dark crystal. i ask them what this symbol is on the box and the one says, "it is the sigil of my people. it is a slain skesis." somehow this is what i'm looking for...
somehow this emphasis on this boy who represents, "hope" and "tomorrow" is the key to the quest-
curious to me that the specific words, "hope for tomorrow"
so starting jan 6th i was approached by a visitor. jan 7th i learn of a painful transformation at the genetic level, and am left with the words, "a hope for tomorrow"
and last night i dreamt of an alien experiment which was considered successful in many ways... was this, "the hope for tomorrow?"
it also is curious to me that we can have dreams carry on the next day. my friend casey claar has had survival dreams all month long, sometimes picking up right where she left off from the night before. it does seem that the more we become aware of our dreams, the more we can see how they relate and carry on into the next time we fall asleep.
i am always fascinated by what happens to the mind as we begin to go to sleep- always hoping to catch that slipping point of awareness to non-awareness and noticing things in the body as it happens. this is a hidden joy in my life.
so without further ado- last nights dream:
human alien hybrid experiment
i'm with some secret intelligence force(human). i'm dreaming as group mind. the perspective is from the small group of volunteers. we're willing experiments, attempting something like a transfer of consciousness into alien hybrid avatars. some aliens are offended because our hybrids contain original(ancestral) genetics of the offended. this isn't revealed until later. at first the focus is on the experiment. it's a daunting task. we're a limited crew of 3 or 4 inside a small underground base. we are having to die and be reborn. there is one female in the group- i see through her eyes and the others. we place ourselves in these cryogenic-like tubes. except, a orange liquid begins to fill. the crew of volunteers think the orange liquid is very unique looking. beautiful even. it is not yet revealed to us that this would kill us. the liquid fills everything in the tube essentially- we have to drown in order to proceed. once the realization dawns upon the female, she breaks free from the tube followed by the rest of the volunteers.
it takes multiple attempts before we get it just right. from the perspective of those conducting this experiment- patience is lost by those of higher rank. they start demanding and threatening. one man specifically, tells us of a similar experiment now being conducted on another group of volunteers in another room. he tells us whoever completes this mission first gets to go home. whoever doesn't... well. it's a threat.
i'm back in the eyes of the woman, and another character who reminds me of someone like harrison ford. we are determined to do this- as terrifying as the concept of dying/drowning is. i watch the harrison ford-look-a-like go into the tube and as liquid begins to fill he lets out a bubble and sticks his tongue out. he seems fearless. so we all proceed, and we all allow the liquid to take over everything.
from here, something interesting happens. like a creature jumps out on my back- and another with the other volunteers. the project/experiment is a success. we are now occupying the body and minds of alien forms. we are all different, yet we are able to communicate to each other in the aliens native tongue. we also realize we are able to communicate to each other without talking. there seems to be some emphasis and excitement about our ability to communicate underwater. like we can move about at great depths in the water unrestricted.
the dream begins to kind of slip into a more chaotic, less centrally focused dream. it's a new environment with streams of data. this is where i discover multiple ET beings aware of the project and some who are displeased that hybrids are inhabiting ancestral bodies. it also seems like there's a bunch of, "feet" moving across a mall or an airport. but its more like we're on a ship. it's a different place from where the experiments were originally conducted. this place feels, above ground. more like in the sky . that image of a bunch of feet walking across empty space is really dominating my mind. it's a busy bodied environment. there are many details lost as a consequence. i do think there is a love story of some sort that i am missing, and there is also a mission by a few humans who are not so successful in their transformations- an image of a few people wading in water, those same people attempting to get back home.
