Message #40016

[guest587]

Thanks for your interest Steve.

A merging of love interest?

Before bed I asked God to shed some light on a new love interest. I will learn about her tonight!

Well... I barely remember my dreams, quite chaotic! I DO* remember, a bunch of cars parked horrendously in my driveway. A man with a large company truck hauling a motorcycle trailer ends up hitting one of my vehicles. I come out to tell him something like... I understand it was difficult for you to pull into my driveway- but you hit my jeep.

Really strange but the man kind of reminds me of that young politician in PA- Fetterman. I don't know anything about him- just that he has this bald-headed hard knocks look about him and acts a bit ignorant/callous. Also, I don't even own a jeep. I specifically remember the dent on the side of my door- and the dent on the front side of his truck.

My Dad and his buddies, and the many people that hitched a ride in this mans company truck all decide to poke around and look at my jeep. They are impressed by the brown interior. For some reason, this pleases everyone and it also reminds them of President Trump. They realize it's nicer than they thought- except the older gentlemen ask me if it's a 6-cylinder or 4, claiming the 6-cylinder is far superior.

Instead of making it about my jeep I tell him I am more interested in the new model, the wagoneer. 

Later, and this is where it gets kind of blurry. Jessica, my very first long-term girlfriend is riding with me on the back of my motorcycle. We are on our way to pick up a friend- Nancy. Nancy is a woman I had an intense unreciprocated crush on- believing I had known her in a past life. We get lost in this run-down neighborhood where the streets are more like grass and gravel pavement. There's a busy school which is our landmark- and there are parking lots- the temperatures in the dream start to turn cold, there's ice all over and there are rising water levels on the streets. I call Nancy and tell her we can't find her.

Somehow she agrees to meet us at this landmark, the school. There she tells Jessica I'm the guy that ended up liking her, while she ended up dating my friend. She laughs at it like it's no big deal but Jessica, in the back, is crying. I don't understand why Jessica is crying. And Nancy realizes she should probably keep her mouth shut. Jessica is tired that it took us so long, that we don't have a clear road to travel on and that the conditions are not in our favor. Nancy is telling us that she outgrew the neighborhood and she is ready to take on bigger and bolder things.

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That's all I really remember.

What's interesting to me is this girl I am attracted to has a cross between Jessica and Nancy. What I mean is, her physical appearance looks like a blend of the two. Now... This girl is undoubtedly unrelated and her own person, entirely. So I am not making the mistake of assuming and creating definitions based on past experiences... It seems whenever I open up my heart in complete sincerity or a type of submission towards love-themed desires... There's a lesson. Perhaps this is Spirit acknowledging my interest and speaking to me through my last love interest.

Right now I'm not able to make much sense of it all. But am very excited to meet such a lovely new person. = )
Maybe this is my way of saying that I've carried around a desire for real love- and am also feeling more confident with exploring new things. There are some outdated structures that are no longer efficient.
Crazy though, that literally, someone can share such strong physiology with our past. And yet have entirely new meanings.