Daemoons Dream Journal

[guest587]

Thanks for your interest Steve.

A merging of love interest?

Before bed I asked God to shed some light on a new love interest. I will learn about her tonight!

Well... I barely remember my dreams, quite chaotic! I DO* remember, a bunch of cars parked horrendously in my driveway. A man with a large company truck hauling a motorcycle trailer ends up hitting one of my vehicles. I come out to tell him something like... I understand it was difficult for you to pull into my driveway- but you hit my jeep.

Really strange but the man kind of reminds me of that young politician in PA- Fetterman. I don't know anything about him- just that he has this bald-headed hard knocks look about him and acts a bit ignorant/callous. Also, I don't even own a jeep. I specifically remember the dent on the side of my door- and the dent on the front side of his truck.

My Dad and his buddies, and the many people that hitched a ride in this mans company truck all decide to poke around and look at my jeep. They are impressed by the brown interior. For some reason, this pleases everyone and it also reminds them of President Trump. They realize it's nicer than they thought- except the older gentlemen ask me if it's a 6-cylinder or 4, claiming the 6-cylinder is far superior.

Instead of making it about my jeep I tell him I am more interested in the new model, the wagoneer. 

Later, and this is where it gets kind of blurry. Jessica, my very first long-term girlfriend is riding with me on the back of my motorcycle. We are on our way to pick up a friend- Nancy. Nancy is a woman I had an intense unreciprocated crush on- believing I had known her in a past life. We get lost in this run-down neighborhood where the streets are more like grass and gravel pavement. There's a busy school which is our landmark- and there are parking lots- the temperatures in the dream start to turn cold, there's ice all over and there are rising water levels on the streets. I call Nancy and tell her we can't find her.

Somehow she agrees to meet us at this landmark, the school. There she tells Jessica I'm the guy that ended up liking her, while she ended up dating my friend. She laughs at it like it's no big deal but Jessica, in the back, is crying. I don't understand why Jessica is crying. And Nancy realizes she should probably keep her mouth shut. Jessica is tired that it took us so long, that we don't have a clear road to travel on and that the conditions are not in our favor. Nancy is telling us that she outgrew the neighborhood and she is ready to take on bigger and bolder things.

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That's all I really remember.

What's interesting to me is this girl I am attracted to has a cross between Jessica and Nancy. What I mean is, her physical appearance looks like a blend of the two. Now... This girl is undoubtedly unrelated and her own person, entirely. So I am not making the mistake of assuming and creating definitions based on past experiences... It seems whenever I open up my heart in complete sincerity or a type of submission towards love-themed desires... There's a lesson. Perhaps this is Spirit acknowledging my interest and speaking to me through my last love interest.

Right now I'm not able to make much sense of it all. But am very excited to meet such a lovely new person. = )
Maybe this is my way of saying that I've carried around a desire for real love- and am also feeling more confident with exploring new things. There are some outdated structures that are no longer efficient.
Crazy though, that literally, someone can share such strong physiology with our past. And yet have entirely new meanings.

[guest587]

Spending time with Carolina, Killer Bee & Spinning Rope Dart

I just remember spending time with Carolina, she was wearing black and red lingerie and teasing me sexually. She had something coated on her finger and swirled it around my mouth. I remember sucking on her finger and seeing her bottom in tight leggings black and red spandex and my minds eye blurrily focused on this. Very hazy vision and sensual sensations. After, I remember spinning a rope dart like a weapon that controlled the movements of this killer bee like a drone. Someone asked me to show off how well I could control it by hitting a piece of paper with the rope dart at exactly the right points in front of him. I smiled manically at the challenge and was precise enough but as I was hitting the points of the paper a large black killer bee appeared off in my peripherals. It seemed to move with the spinning fan- If I lost control the bee would go off in a wild direction. These movements are somehow connected.

[guest587]

shapeshifting animal, captured and freed

I was a bear turning itself in to be killed. I didn't completely realize I was doing this until the three women there made it clear they intended on killing and eating me. My Sister and her friends came to my rescue, by the time she realized what was happening- I had enough time and was transformed into a wolf escaping its environment. My Sister saw me as a wolf before disappearing and understood the situation had been resolved.

[Ricardo Bullshivich]

shapeshifting animal, captured and freed

I was a bear turning itself in to be killed. I didn't completely realize I was doing this until the three women there made it clear they intended on killing and eating me. My Sister and her friends came to my rescue, by the time she realized what was happening- I had enough time and was transformed into a wolf escaping its environment. My Sister saw me as a wolf before disappearing and understood the situation had been resolved.

I thought I heard someone crying wolf late into the weeee hours of dawn and disturbing camp. Next time I’ll bring barbecue sauce when my sisters and I go hunting in Da’Coons Forest.

[guest587]

AoOOoOoOOOOOOOO!!! Be careful. I may have found my pack.

Soon the hunter becomes the hunted. 

[guest587]

grandpas treasures, brian and weed, sleep and spiderman

I remember talking to my Grandpa. In the dream he is able to speak(he had a stroke IRL and is unable to talk). He is talking to me and helping me unlock some of his personal treasures. He shows me different compartments and tells me, why don't you unlock this one? Pointing to a more complicated lock system. I tell him I don't know how to unlock that and he does it for me, revealing all of his medals earned while a marine. They are his accomplishments and he explains to me each one.



Later I visit Brian at his Moms house. He wants me to smoke weed and I don't smoke. I act excited at the prospect of, "black cherry kush" or dark cherry dank. Something like that. He only gives me a pinch because I tell him I can't handle it. After inhaling a pinch all I remember is falling asleep and waking up an hour later. I ask him what happened, we got very little sleep. We fell asleep around 6AM and woke up at 7ish. He woke up to guest coming to his house, I told him I did not get enough sleep and was going home.



On the way home I remember being confronted by people who meant to harm me. We were in an underground tunnel system. Here I am learning how to escape like the experience is a simulation. I have spidermans capabilities, shooting a web and avoiding my would-be attackers. It's a learning process and someone is guiding this simulation like it's a video game with different difficulties. I tell him to up the difficulty even though I clearly can not control my new abilities- really having a hard time steering my avatar. He ups the difficulty and I run into a more capable version of myself who has really taken to his new abilities. I crash into my self and before falling asleep in the dream just remember the people chasing me.



I lose awareness here and am sleeping before my alarm goes off. 

[Ricardo Bullshivich]

AoOOoOoOOOOOOOO!!! Be careful. I may have found my pack.

Soon the hunter becomes the hunted. 

Yea how do I detect wolves 🐺 in sheep’s clothing?

[guest587]

Waterworld, Airplane, Tower, Dominion, Whataburger. 7 and 13

I'm exploring something like a spiral tower which seems to be a type of school with permanent residence. It's not the easiest thing to navigate. There's really only one way to get to where you need and it isn't the most reliable. I am trying to get to the 13th floor. I take elevators which continually get me to the 7th floor.



During this I have the most vague recollection of a warring tribe on a waterworld. I am somehow mastering an ability, in a war for authority. This theme merges into the dream with the tower, which is where attention seems to anchor itself.



Back on the 7th floor I am asking students how to get to the 13th. Fortunately for me, a student told me there's a more direct route because the President happens to be here and is visiting. Yes, it's Joe Biden. In the dream he doesn't seem at all that competent or put-together. He is just there smiling, and it's like there's a greater force behind the scenes as I try to recall Bidens character. All I see with him is a constant smile as he believes himself charismatic. 



The way to the 13th floor is to hitch a ride on a type of ground vehicle outside the tower that extends up and out- like a bucket truck. I manage to hitch a ride and am told to be careful as it's a dangerous method.



Once at the 13th floor the scene shifts to the pilot of an airplane. There's something wrong with the plane and he is being told to ground it. He does not trust the environment and says if he lands the plane he will crash. The people over the radio are aggressive with him. He asks the President if he knows these people and the President says no. The pilot makes an executive decision and decides not to land, despite something being wrong with the plane.



Back at the tower I am told I need to continue to rise up and be intimate with the women at the top of the tower in order to have dominion over all floors. I am remembering another male with me. He is having sex with the women there but has his eyes on the queen as well. There are scenes of the waterworld in the back of my mind playing out at the same time.



On my quest to the top of the tower I take a detour with an old high school acquaintance. He's hungry. We go to whataburger. I am somehow the person taking the order on the other side. I remember taking a womans order... She wants 4 large chicken sandwiches, french fries and a drink.



Before waking up I am feeling the sensual nature of the woman at the top of the tower.

[guest587]

11/2/22

isolated memory/recall

I remember little tidbits. I didn't record right away.

I remember taking a motorcycle full throttle on a turn and having to drag my knee as I leaned into it. Still, I didn't handle it the best as I was pulled wide and out to the side.

Someone commented and I tried again, so I cut the turn more aggressively and handled it much better- and took the bike to a speed of 110mph.

I also remember being on someone's boat and we pulled into harbor. There were so many fancy, nice boats. It felt like I was in the Netherlands.

































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11/3/22

javier and jen, carpet installation, observing a car crash, dr. brown, creature trying to put a spell on me

i  watched javier and jen get a new carpet installed. i offered to help watch their dog. there were many workers, and they got it done all in the same day. i remember seeing them remove the old one and hammering nails in with the new one.

in another scene i am traveling with a group in a van. i see off in the distance a man and a friend going sideways down a hill in their ford mustang. i wonder if he's trying to drift. as we turn the corner(and we're at a higher elevation) the mustang flips and spins in the water. "whoa! whoa!" i shout and get everyone's attention. i explain the man crashed and feel like we should get out to help. fortunately the passenger is carrying the driver out from the water and despite the car being totaled and missing a wheel they are completely unharmed.

at the end of the recall i am waiting to speak to dr. brown the endocrinologist i visited. there's a line and i am called. i believe i am seeing him because i need clearance for, something. he says my energy levels are good and ask what i'm doing(since i've rejected his thyroid medication). i don't tell him everything i'm doing but i tell him i'm taking 1 brazil nut every day for the selenium content, i tell him i'm wearing compression socks and taking magnesium for the syncope diagnoses. (i don't tell him about the iodine every other day). he says he has no problem with the brazil nut and says i am doing better than before. that my, "levels" have returned within normal range.

after this i am visited by some tree spirit. the first one tried to put a spell on me and it didn't work. this memory is a little blurry. it's like i'm surrounded by whimsical creatures in a courtyard. there's a giant oak. the tree spirits brother threatens to put me to sleep with these powerful herbs different from the first one- i'm supposed to help him with... something.
i wake up. 

[guest587]

again isolated recall, fragmented memory- almost forgot then suddenly remembered bits and pieces... and a very interesting/odd conversation with my self during dream state:


I remember being chosen to represent a people as their champion. There was a project of enhancing abilities and cloaking and it literally involved wearing anothers skin. The skin comes from people that are already dead, previous champions who have gone through an embalming process. It's some kind of secret project. I have a weapon, I once again am remembering a rope dart as my weapon.

Also as a separate memory randomly within the recall is a proposed free savings account of $50,000. But after reading the fine print you have to maintain a certain amount in the account every year and a certain % is used against you and you end up with something like +$25. That or +$2,500. It's a big difference but it is still being mulled over in the dream because it is free money and it is an account I would never use.

Also very strange and hard to recall is that I am actually in conversation with some unknown entity- presumably my self. I am telling my self that I chose to learn alongside Ego and Spirit- that this means going through motions with Ego that may be more or less considered embarrassing. I am told I am doing fine, but the reason for some of my depression might have to do with this inability to recognize that I am again, going through the motions, with ego-based desires. It isn't necessarily about achieving the lesser desires, which were mistaken at one point as the only desires, but it is more about remembering this entire ordeal is a project for growth and learning alongside material/nature/ and even shallow desires.

It's as if there is something... Someone, on the other side. An aspect of my self, watching, and there may even be a spiritual family here on this journey with me- experiencing with me through my lone incarnation, not always aware that there is more than the mundane existence and more than the idea of an isolated personality. Not sure how much sense that makes, it's fuzzy- just a feeling that I have a "group" and though you can't see them... and though I hardly recognize them... they are here with me. It was like a pep talk with my self which I wasn't in full control of- I was more asking the questions and the answers seemed to me without my conscious awareness.

[guest587]

Kids Draw Negativity, Fish with Demonic Influence?

I forgot the first part of my dreams, just a vague recollection of alien technology- some kind of plasma cannon. I remember seeing unique light and energy floating across the terrain in what felt like one of my typical off-world adventures.

I woke up to use the restroom and fell back asleep.
There are these two kids with powers, they are like psychokinesis. They don't realize their attitude is going to get them killed, they produce negative effects- I remember a scene where they summoned a bunch of crows and scared these people. The idea here is they are using their powers in a negative and self sabotaging manner. One kid in particular is creating and heavily drenched in evil, omen after omen.

I remember rescuing this unique fish. It is the size of my pinky, slender black with flaps opening up on its bottom-side exposing a red line and a splash of white. It needs water to breathe and it's been put on land, its face is swelling and it is dying. I find a good tupperware style bowl. I remember filling it with water- I even remember choosing spring water over tap water. I put this fish in and on my drive with the fish in the bowl I am praying that it comes back to life. There is a uncertainty in this dream, whether the fish is demonic or not. It is quite a fearful sight. It comes back to life, the prayer brought a type of bond between us. I am going to petsmart to identify the kind of fish. When I get there, they are closed and really strange having a wedding inside the facility. An employee sees me with the fish though and is extremely disturbed by its appearance. The thing has grown in size- now encompassing the totality of the tupperware. It has a really scary looking mouth. The employee opens the fishes mouth and pulls out something that was stuck in its throat. This relieves the fish and allows him to move about in a more relaxed manner. Again there is this question whether the fish is of demonic influence- or making me numb to demonic forces. Or is it protecting me? Something, like the observing mind, is questioning this- as the black fish continues to grow in size- its mouth has ant like pincers, and it becomes more dominant and ominous in the minds eye.

[guest587]

acid, topless woman and bull

I don't recall as much this time around- I feel like there's a good chunk of data missing.
I remember something being so acidic that the side of my cheek corroded away. It ate my gums, it ate my flesh. You could see the side of my jaw/rows for teeth when I smiled. I was dealing with a partial deformity. Flesh and gum were eaten away.

After I woke up and used the restroom... I went back to sleep to dream about a young couple- there was a guy with a child and wife back home... But he was out neglecting his duties dating a young girl in a type of get-away scenery. I was somehow accompanying this young man while my Mother was helping the wife and child with the groceries back at their house. I told Mom, what are you doing? Get out of their house! Lol... It was like she invited herself at their doorstep to help. Everyone seemed appreciative though.

I found both the wife he left at home and the girl from the get away vacation extremely attractive. The scenery was something like shallow and gentle running water, beautiful weather, shade with vibrant green shrubbery, random marble slabs and steps implanted within nature at unique heights- it felt like we were at the edge of a cliff. The girl was spinning around on the marble, she was topless and wearing short shorts. The guy was smoking weed off in the distance. I was mesmerized by his girl. Suddenly a young bull came out from the shrubs and behind her. I had to warn her and get the man who was smoking attention. It's like I was indirectly in this scene- but using what ghostly presence I had to help lure the girl away from the bull. She hadn't turned around and noticed, but I was successful getting the young man to see- who called her over. By the time she hop and skipped over some marble she turned around and realized there was this majestic brown bull.

He looked kind of like this except he was a little larger, a little older, wiser and his presence was awe-inspiring

[guest587]

subterranean prison; the number 8

my sleep has not been the best lately. i still haven't adjusted to daylight savings. i wake up every so often through out the night, but when i am asleep it is deep and i can barely remember my dreams. i do remember, finally, being able to hold on to something.

i'm in some kind of life or death challenge- it's a subterranean prison. not everyone is human. specific obstacles are designed to kill you. no one is on your side. i remember however, befriending a creature that knew what he was doing. i followed his lead through out the course. i remember us trying to break free from this place. one obstacle required us to roll across this sticky tarp with all our force. the environment for this challenge is likened to a moonwalk pit. and once we roll past this extremely sticky ground we are in the opposite corners looking up because something is dropping from above designed to crush whoever is stuck. expected to die, we draw a lot of attention to ourselves for managing to get past this challenge. this creature is cloaked, he has many green glowing eyes coming from out of his hood. the recall is a bit blurry here. i am also remembering a beach underground?. even though the feeling is subterranean, there are large empty spaces and even flying ships. this creature and i have become so coordinated we use each others bodies to trick our pursuers. i remember him rescuing me with his ship, a zipline of some sort being shot out as i am jumping off a cliff and colliding with the creature as we are suspended midair, he then shoots some kind of rope back to the ship, and another rope back onto a shielded piece... it's kind of like a spider casting a web and we are suspending ourselves appropriately. the shield is like plasma energy.
the last piece i remember here is somehow making it out of this hellish prison, but not fully escaped from the land. we are in hiding. dragging ourselves through mud, off on the countryside. we don't want passerby's to see us. i remember being so low to the ground and trying to take the shape of the brush and mud as cars and children pass by to my left. i remember sliding and writhing across this mans backyard, which was like an oasis for wildlife. he was like the warden and land owner of this entire place and his home was like a resort compared to the subterranean prison i had just escaped. he was on his phone distracted and did not see me escaping into the wooded area his backyard leads up to. we are actually going up a narrow hill with trees and shrubs on either side. i see these wild birds and know my escape is finally upon me. i am now resting in the mud- and another black creature with many green glowing eyes comes up to me and presses its body against mine and we disappear into nothing.

when i fall back asleep i remember being in some kind of marathon. there is only one other person who races across this line with me. i don't mind him, he is slightly ahead of me. we both have our arms out, which is indicating our ability to fly. i only remember saying to myself how important the number 8 is. somehow this number means freedom and these challenges will be overcome.

[guest587]

killing a jaguar?

i was with a group of people... a jaguar invaded our space, he was hunting us/stalking us. at first we were scared and tried moving to a different room. but this one guy in our group was completely fed up and took an old dirty mattress and asked me or someone else to use it to capture the jaguar. the jaguar was entangled in parts of the mattress that were missing. the guy pushed the mattress down and effectively killed or smothered the jaguar. the threat was no longer there. i did not feel good about any of this.

the rest was very deep, and though there were multiple dreams- this is all i can recall.

[guest587]

martial arts, crossing muddy terrain, wolves, alien insects

i'm in a group with my friends sammy, scott and sammy's brother andrew.

we're practicing martial arts together and traveling across wide open lands. some areas are muddy and we're driving our motorcycles through the mud. other times we're on foot.

i remember a scene where two wolves come running up to us a little aggressively at first- but rather than run away i find myself barking at the dogs and chasing them. i howled like a wolf letting sammy and scott know(they were off in the distance) there were other wolves near and basically took control of the territory- shooing them away, establishing our "territory." it was like we were wolves ourselves and running as a separate pack.

i also dreamt of surreal creatures and insects. i was taking photos of them. i remember being zoomed in. the lady bug is a special symbol for me- this ladybug had alien eyes- everything was normal about this ladybug except its eyes, which were kind of detached bulbs from the rest of the creature. it was hovering in a stand still and radiating gold light.
afterwards i noticed a type of spider crawling up a car and i was taking photos of it eating a flower, it extended its mandibles and was also not an insect like i had seen before. it ate the flower in the fashion a venus fly trap would eat a fly. this was like a shapeshifting spider. these were alien insects and i was captivated.