Message #44209

[guest587]

i remember an old co-worker, jason, handing out extremely large steaks. they were like 18-20oz steaks. i was actually disgusted by the size and the quality of the meat. it was all we had to eat, i did not want to eat- i took a few bites then returned the food to jason. he and a few others seemed displeased that i would not eat the food they were offering. i tried, but at least jason seemed cordial about it.

i remember my friend matt, with me in the backyard. we were shooting a bow and arrow at a dummy tied to a post. at first we were messing around, trying to shoot over our heads, backwards. then we decided to take aim and focus. matts shot was arched but it went precisely into the dummies mouth. i tried to recreate matts shot except mine did not arch. it was straight and much faster. it went through the lips and the tip of the arrow came out the back of its neck.

this symbolism with the throat seems relevant to communication.

there was another weird symbol, i discover an android hiding in a shell of a human. once exposed the android is actually a white gooey substance, laying on the floor. he cant move without his host body, the feeling here is like i am looking at the sticky habits of my self. the desire is to remove this crap from my being.

lastly i am visiting brian, or he is visiting me. he sparks rage in me and both of our energy levels are rising to the point of violent outburst. there's a desire to fight, but i remove myself from the dreamscape entirely. i realize though my heart holds some care for him, i don't want to be around him.

wake up.