Message #41376

[guest587]

Thank you Steve for your reply.

I believe the reason I am having trouble lately is because I am having multiple dreams at once. This to me has something more to do with the nature of reality. Yesterday a man in my dream asked me the purpose of life, and I felt very careful in my reply to him- using choice words and much consideration.

Then tonight I felt I was in another realm of SELF, and met a woman who explained to me some of the nature of reality- all while experiencing multiple dreams at once. Some of my amnesia was explained to me... And this SELF transformation also has a lot to do with the spring season upon us. We are all part of the greater picture.


Last nights dream...

interesting observation, "shedding" energetically

again filled with many dreams and i caught something interesting as i recalled the tail-end of one.
i realized whoever i was initially talking to as i was waking up/dreaming, changed. now i've dreamt of people changing in dreams before- but this felt kind of unique, like i was in a realm of higher vibration- could not sustain it coming back into full awareness... and the girl(whoever she was) she was kind of like a fellow angel/warrior transformed into a familiar character, and the context started to shift.

in the last dream i remember confronting a, "demon." my self and a fellow were allowed to take our angelic form- it was such a relief. like stretching a muscle, we shed our disguise and we started sprinting full speed down a field. it was incredible speed, faster than normal.

this demonic energy was very convincing in that it took aspects of my past and mixed them together, and i thought what i was dreaming was really happening. but i remembered these two separate memories could not exist together, and i did not feel anger towards the energy trying to confuse me. instead i recognized the dream as a type of shedding of the old.

the dream descended into ideas of this demon thing having multiple identities/characters, this building had suffered a major explosion. before its collapse we, my fellow and i- were negotiating with the presence. it wanted power and we'd agreed to give it some.

while all this is happening- there are really weird dreams happening simultaneously with characters from my past- who i no longer talk to. mostly acquaintances from high school mixed with some other friends of old. for example.. while i'm scaling the building, going up multiple floors i am also dreaming of these folks from the past and we are all sitting at a round table sharing answers to some kind of test.

in another dream an acquaintance named max is mailing me letters that belong to him and carrying out illegal activities. i confront him and tell him i'm not interested in him using my address.
while this happens the demonic presence is also confronted by the angelic beings.

it ask for power and they give it to him. my mind starts changing events into rather child displays but the being is filled with gold light to the point where it becomes possessed.
the child translation is that it became possessed with the desire to sing christmas carols and it left the building to go and fulfill its new obsessions.

at the same time this is happening i am dreaming of scientist inside the building recreating a poisonous psychedelic substance out of nothing by spraying something on- and extracting something from a miniature human. gold/bronze misty spray.

after claiming victory from the negative breach the separate entities that represent the one being are rounded up and being escorted out bound together. their mouths open and it's like an incoming call from another world is taking place- imagine being on the phone but there's no phone, and whatever someone is saying is coming out of the mouths of these separate beings, one at a time until the sentence is complete. basically this "phone call" was asking about what happened and whether certain actions would be allowed and what test they could explore next. the beings looked lifeless, staring up into their third eye area/oblivion, mouths agape and the phone voice coming through had this sound to it that felt other worldly.

so this is a kind of test...?
at some point after the building collapse i am sitting on some rafters next to a woman who is the same person described in the beginning of my dream recall but she changes into a familiar face as i start to wake up. she used a particular word that i can't remember, describing something i was doing- because in the dream i am trying to recall what is happening. but as i try to hold on to the word and who she is instead the familiar energy and familiar face takes hold and morphs my environment. suddenly its like im in a different world within dream land residing in a different vibration. but that time of sitting and discussing with the woman was to help me understand that all of this was a transformative process. it's also helping me understand that multiple 'realities' exist simultaneously where 'who' or 'what' we are is operating within these different, 'layers.'

i understand i was being prodded at by this, 'demonic' entity an aspect of my self- just like the 'angelic' entities. and there was nothing 'evil' this was more a hope to get a rise out of me to see if i was still bound to particular emotions from the past.

well anyways... terrible recall the details are so scattered, i've omitted some, both intentionally and unintentionally. but i realize i was having multiple dreams at once, that characters were intentionally disguised, that a type of amnesia is taking place as i wake up and that perhaps the vibrations are just too high for me to retain correctly. (if that's even a thing)...