Message #33012

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Eric you have been a wonderful friend. With you I have never felt the need to forgive but rather the need to understand as you appear to be doing the same. It is not so difficult to want to forgive. It is more difficult to forget. Lingering doubts about myself often follow the way people have reacted to me. It is often frustrating not knowing how God would respond or not respond. I’m not so definitive about life’s realities. I suppose that could be seen as a weakness since I may have enabled some people to continue their abusive behavior. Also, I may have let in energy fields that have disrupted a an increasing meditative aura. There comes a point though when one starts seeing very clearly what a person is doing and how it is also affecting my spiritual growth. Unfortunately it often takes a lot of time to make a significant decision about such matters.