A thought occurred to me today that perhaps a reason I have not received more definitive answers/experience at this time, despite the thinning of the veil that has already taken place, is because I am not ready. I have not learned how to listen to God. I think this might be a reason my reunion with the Peacock Angel has only gone so far. Presently I still have selfish desires that sometimes supersede the small voice within.
Until the day can come when I do not rely on the surface level thoughts, but can fully comprehend the nonverbal sensations from the depth of my being as an intimate communion with God, I can not fully advance. For now, the connection remains intermittent.
Maybe this sounds extreme. But I can also say I am not ready, sometimes I am okay with humoring selfish tendencies. I am hopeful as the process seems to be maturing, and the selfish thoughts become less frequent. I can not say I have overcome restlessness.
I sure hope to commune with the Peacock Angel once more, reunite with my Soul and plead for Gods forgiveness. I am still not ready, still have much fear to heal. But I know the Angel is here. I have been given so much help. Have even seen archangels as a part of my personal experience. Lord, God... And friend Peacock King- what do you ask of me?
