I just want to add I have always had an unexplored but strong interest in fallen angels. I don't know why, but growing up, I felt a part of that history with me. This was relayed to me in dreams and intuitive impressions. I have felt ideas, possibly shared by an unseen intelligence, of an abyss and separation. It is a very lonely feeling, being disconnected. I have taken an alias "tides2dust" which is both romantic and haunting in its expression- associated with my fear of dissolution and more, my joy of rebirth and merging with eternity. All of these concepts are somehow linked to the Peacock Angel. I can't share this with one of my greater spiritual support. I've tried sharing a couple times and I am told some of the people that interest me are false prophets(like Paramahansa Yogananda). I really think it's sad because this to me is an inability to understand another. If I push it, it is too challenging and considered blasphemy so I do not go there. I try to tread lightly in respect for others beliefs, though others have felt it prudent to ensure I am aligned with their views. If life is a mirror I know I can work on this. I am aligned that there is ultimately One God, and that most choose Love above all else.
One memory I have is leaving a planet on a cold ship and feeling a lot of emotion specifically alone or disconnected. Another I have is of existing in the womb as "formless awareness." Another alias I'd have growing up, prior to tides2dust is 'abysmaltouch.' And although I don't think fallen angels have wings- one way this message was relayed to me was from an OBE where I saw my reflection and I had black wings molting and '"falling" off of me. Another dream is being impaled and cast out with others... As a sliding rock closed above our heads the last thing I saw was blood splattered on the wall in-front of me taking the shape of an angel(a general image that most humans associate with) then darkness.
I do believe the Peacock Angel is speaking to me and through interest it has birthed in this life like modern Sufism... Yet it seems the peacock angel might actually be considered Lucifer by folks and I am not Luciferian. Still... I do believe there is a part of my soul sharing something with the history of fallen angels and I'm not sure but Spirit has been keeping this story alive somehow in my subconscious and continually guiding me to a similar story.
Anyways, this is what I read today on the Peacock Angel:
The Peacock Angel is most often identified as Azazel or Lucifer, leaders of the Rebel and Fallen Angels, respectively. (Lucifer is also a title, not a true name and may be interpreted as “the one who brings light.”) Yezidis are labelled devil worshippers because Muslim neighbours consider the Peacock Angel to be the devil. The Yezidis do not agree. Their religion does not possess the same concepts of the devil, hell, or sin as Islam does. Instead, the Peacock Angel is the saviour and ruler of the universe, made even more compassionate by time spent in the abyss.
https://occult-world.com/peacock-angel/
