Message #30921

[guest88]

I am finding that true, the older I get.
which is an interesting phenomena of the aging process... no? maybe I need to cultivate a more childlike mind... yet retain my adult like reasoning and concentrating abilities...
for example,
false accusations made against me by coworkers, conflict of interest and other trials in the workplace plague my mind when I begin to think of those who publicly humiliated me or had some form of relationship with. I also feel anxiety when I am trying to grasp at idea's of who I want to be, who I ought to be when I am being bombarded by the expectations of my coworkers and supervisors. in general these two intermingle when I get to work and it feels a bit like a mental handicap preventing me from being able to accept things and grow. I battle with it, I will overcome but it is there nonetheless.