for every high there is a low

[guest88]

feeling stricken with grief as i look at my family, have been so close to my family for so many years, my mother is with her friend and i had a slight out of body experience. this morning was really high energy, it was nice to help bring my family together. just now as i saw my mothers friend sitting at our dining table in profile, i was hit with the reminder that this is all a virtual experience, real people to become 'archaic' and then a memory. i saw my mother in the kitchen, thought of all the things she stood for... she was there getting treats for our dogs, i saw the light behind her and the orchid behind the sink. i saw our connection from out of my body and the thought that i will have to part ways is feeling quite miserable. i think i've done this before and i'm not quite ready to do it again. i have 30 years history with this house, the dalmatians that have come and gone... soon it'll be just my sister and i.

[guest88]

everything's okay by the way! all part of the journey. what a trip. it was a brief moment of feeling like i was looking at a still photo- looking at the past. like i had actually lost my mother and her friend. that this house was empty for a moment.