I doubt that you and I and many others here have the risk of ‘jumping the Wagon’ and renouncing all desires;

.....but I get your point Eric and I have gone too far that way in the past and then swung the other way as a consequence. An interesting feature I find in relationships is that we are often attracted to features in others that we may not have as strong in ourselves. This I have found to be true in my relationship with you as well as many other people in my life. Thus the radiation of their aura helps us in developing what we are trying to develop and admire in others. I certainly have found that to be the case in many intimate and close friendships and relationships.
You have to do what’s right for you. I can only tell you that I thought the energization exercises created by Paramahansa Yogananda May be of great help to you in developing discipline and balancing out the swings between discipline and dissipation. No one has to be a disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda to take the SRF lessons and learn the energization exercises in the first 8 weeks. They are a unique contribution that Yogananda has created for spiritual aspirants and develop the human will and have helped me tremendously keep more healthy than most people I have met in my life.
Below a picture of yours truly energizing in winter water wonderland. I energize twice a day as Paramahansa Yogananda advises to develop conscious will, conscious health and conscious vitality.
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