Message #44633

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There was a time when I did a little better with less coffee. Now I drink a cold brew every morning. But I have a goal this year to severely reduce my caffeine intake. Having addictive personality, it's no wonder I can see a post made almost 5 years ago struggling with the same thing. This is how it was for alcohol. It took a serious desire, a lot of patience and a lot of pleading with God. By his grace that was cured. Now I must begin again with coffee.

I actually sell cold brews in my store, people really love it- and I love making beautiful blends with aromatic beans and mountain valley spring water. I will continue to make people coffee, and I will try to reduce my portion sizes and skip days.

My, 'kundalini' awakening could have been nothing more than the detox from years of alcohol abuse. I have heard coming off caffeine dependency can be equally damning. I'm a little nervous- but I am ready to reclaim some of the mental landscape.

There was a point in my life where I didn't drink any coffee and I had more sleep paralysis, OBE's, and in general- a better ability to feel whole in any moment with a type of calmness that caffeine only teases my brain with- "like riding the dragon" with pseudo-zen and forceful euphoria which would become a normal morning habit. No, it's time to get back to a Me I am beginning to miss.

Do I love coffee? Yes, absolutely. Nothing with sugars- not hot coffees. Just black cold brews. Maybe there is a healthy medium.