It seems to me that we do things subconsciously through past life conditioning and association. Much of this life is used finding out just what we have come from in another (life)then we finally catch on to these events and there conscious intentions and realizations manifest. We then start seeking in earnest. We are at home with our latent tendencies and try to develop them even more this time around. It is like wanting to make up for lost time.
I can easily agree with the overall point that you are making here Steve! This point was driven home when I was in my mid twenties. There was a certain
heaviness that I carried around with me all the time.... I was, and am, generally very upbeat but through my early life there was a certain weight that lay in the
background, deep, oppressive, very thick. Until one night I had a most interesting dream. It was one of those "other" type of dreams, the kind that you know
at the time is much much more than the usual dance of emotional processing.
In this one I was a monk, a fairly well situated monk for the time, looked/felt to be around the 1400's. I was in charge of a fairly sizable group of other
monks, and our purpose then was to reproduce the bible. At that time we were doing so by hand. Each monk had his own area to work in, the job was laborious,
time consuming and required exactness. But in the dream I was revisiting myself. As my monk-self I was reflecting on my life and feeling that I had wasted
it on this process of biblical replication. I had started that life with a great sense of promise, had been excited about being assigned this duty, but over the years
became disillusioned, and toward the end, deeply depressed, that this is all that life had been for me that time around..... The feeling that I felt from my other
self matched "exactly" the feeling that I had been carrying around with me for as long as I could remember....... When I awoke, it was gone..... this feeling
had effectively dissipated..... and hasn't returned since....
Another brief encounter that I had with a past life was on the plains of the US back during the expansion of the white populations westward. I was
a member of a tribe that was attempting to push back the advance of the train tracks that were being built though the center of our territory.
I was killed in that exchange by a bullet to the back... I felt the sting of it's entry and felt my consciousness slipping away from the body.... but just
as interesting I also caught a brief gimps into who I was back then. I liked who I was... I understood what we were fighting to protect.... it was
an odd but quick visit into a framework, a perspective, that was quite unique and instructive...... I would love to have access to many more of these
peeks into what else my soul has been up to, should they become available. The perspective that comes with them are quite profound....!
