Message #2734

[StephenK]

Hi again Steve    :^)

    You're off to a good start.....Thank you!    When I first looked into the inner workings of astrology
I was looking for some insight as to why I felt such a total train wreck at the time.  What caught
my eye early-on in this adventure was the discovery of just how heavily Saturn had influence over
my chart.

    Now in looking over the aspects that astro.com had listed it looks like they have
a tighter ruling as to how big a degree sweep it takes to make up an aspect.  In the books that
I was reading at the time there was a growing consensus that heavy conjunctions would stretch
the width of this influence and thus broaden the aspects somewhat.  With this in mind, Saturn was
influencing the chart in relation to each planet.... At the time I shouted eureka!   This seemed to explain
everything... 
 
      Since then I've drifted way from a lot of this astrological imagery  (I just had to run to google to find
out the names of the aspects... couldn't remember Sextile, Trine and the good ol Opposition... now that's rusty!  :^)
But I've always held onto this Saturn thingy....  It made sense then and still makes sense at some level.....

    I feel like I'm living on a hot seat.... all the time driven into motion at some level.  I've found that through channeling
most of this intensity into creative endeavors is perhaps the best format to bring to it some order. So I do photography,
film editing, home building, writing, learn just about everything I can about everyone I know.... the running joke
among our family is, don't worry about interrupting dad if you want to talk to him... if you wait for him to have
nothing to do you'll wait forever!  :^)       All this I basically attribute to Saturn...  (well... and the boat load of
spiritual experiences didn't do much for settling things down :^) 

     I wanted to revisit this because when I think of my chart I think of Saturn...  I've come to like the positive stuff
that comes out of heavily being challenged.   And it's also forcing me to do one other thing that I'm truly growing
to like....  it's forcing me to remain in the "present"... since about the only place I can find peace is by living in the
perfect now....  Only shadows of tomorrow and yesterday is ancient history.... 

.....living within the glowing now is quite wonderful!   :^)