Message #28597

[guest88]

What happens when we have the knowledge but do not apply it? I was given an opportunity to be a real peace maker in the family today and instead added fuel to the fire. I am completely responsible, I have apologized to my family and hugged it out but the feeling of failing my family isn't gone. I would say this was a test and I saw an opportunity to transcend outdated behavior on a larger scale, what happens when we deliberately fail God?
Knowledge vs Understanding
Knowing the right thing vs Doing the right thing
Do the right thing, don't wait.
I hope this pain continues to sting me, I pray to God for forgiveness and for more opportunity. I've lost loves because of my ignorance.
We may gather a wealth of knowledge and in our solitude feel immensely connected to Love but if we can't respond appropriately around our Family then perhaps we aren't as close to the realization or the experience as we once thought. For this reason, I don't think it's necessary to isolate ourselves from the world. It's most important to learn to be in the world and maintain a God realization. It's important to give to others this desire, let your yearning to be with God be felt by those in your company. In this case, my desires were shut down and distracted as I was more engaged in a game of chess vs being there for my Family. Winning the game did not feel good at all.
Peace.