Message #42355

[guest587]

Thanks Steve.

I don't wish to comment in a way that would belittle your life experience and interpretations. This isn't a lecture but just a continuing of our thoughts.

I find my self a bit perplexed at times because when I am alone, sometimes- I feel happy and free. I know I am never truly alone, and I am actually feeling that happiness and freedom with God. It is a most incredible sensation, and gives me the utmost confidence.

And other times, when I am with others, especially around those who unintentionally challenge me- I too recognize that I have been blessed by God. I believe we are all unique aspects of One God, and to have the privilege of interacting with another is a part of the human experience... And maybe even a part of the dance with God. Sometimes I even get such lovely sensations around others- I know it can be egoic but it can also be very soul nourishing.

Certainly there are those we may find disagreeable, and so I don't necessarily think a polarization is, "bad" but more-so, appropriate. And we continue our journey with God, and find Him in the many forms around us. In troubling times, and in comforting ones. I don't think most people truly know themselves. I'm about to turn 35 and I am still finding so much joy in discovery and unfolding.

I agree with your assessments but am also of the mind that sometimes we are called to act on those compulsions. We don't *always* know better, and sometimes God uses us in mysterious ways.

I had an 1111 moment with a dear friend, when two hearts are united- the magic behind 1111 can be extraordinarily mind boggling. I don't think it has to be though. I think it speaks more to the power and Intelligence behind LOVE. And so, I was driven and even given support by 1111 to engage with this friend. We both wanted something deeper but it turns out that perhaps that something deeper wasn't meant to mean we should appease our desires for romantic partnership. I couldn't see it at the time, I had been trying to convince my self, so much was aligned. I didn't consider every possibility. And how can anyone be expected to? We're here for experiential wisdom after all... So sometimes you got to get your hands dirty... Then you can say you really do know.

If you think you know better, then act accordingly. So I don't have advice for you here- and I don't think you're asking for any. If anything I think you're teaching me right now- to remember to listen. To still myself and ask, is this a direction I really want to explore?

That's what I think matters.

For all of you beauty seekers out there... And a note to self here... Hold on to the belief that God is with you in all ways... It's a liberating practice.

Jai Guru friend! =)