Message #28157

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Recently I went without meditating for a while and as a result noticed the restlessness in my mind. One morning I wanted to do so many things at once because I was looking too far ahead and imagining what pleasures I might expect from various, fixed activities with others- I was in an extremely irritable state for being so far reaching and the plans I ended up making were to many. Immediate gratification caught me blindsided which caused my impulsive nature to run rampant and impart suffering on myself and worse, on others. Fool I am, when the answer is obvious. Things aren't as bad as they seem, forgiveness and sincerity are transcendental but the chaos in the mind needed settling- I have since applied some meditation but often feel the pangs of that restless nature looking to escape- if given the time and energy, that chaotic feeling begins to leak forth. My question here is, for those who have made meditation a regular practice- do you think you've conquered your restless nature? Am I just becoming more aware of the consequences of not meditating?