hi Steve! Jidhendra

I think you're describing the desire to expand your senses. To be lighter and free to move about like the wind but to feel vast and deep like the ocean. I think you're describing a longing to share this connection with someone or maybe you need to look even further within yourself.
Have you tried meditating since this post ?
Here's a funny piece from Reggie Watts that I've shared here before but something you said reminded me of what he shared for us....
You:
Although this reality has so many physical limitations. It is as though we are heavy here. Objects do not move by will and we can not always just go where we would like by will. We must make a special exertion to get there or be there. Time is slowed down.... so we have to feel the effects of things for long periods. As though time it self is some kind of prison like you would think of being behind bars.
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And the important thing to remember is that this simulation is a good one. It’s believable. It’s tactile. You can reach out. Things are solid. You can move things from one area to another. You can feel your body. You can say I’d like to go over to this location. You can move this mass of molecules through the air over to another location at will. That’s something you live inside of every day.
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I've not much to offer because whatever I write here will not satisfy what you're longing, may even diminish this special feeling you have...Recondition even.. =P This moment will come to pass.... Recognizing a connection from the tiny spider and out to the cosmos is a unique awareness, special and easy to forget.
Earth is wonderful Steve. My opinion. My heart says we're all children here... Even the great and wise.
You're here now, for whatever reason-