Hey guys,
... He was another artist type and had this whole free love thing going on. When I found out he cheated he didn't consider what he had done was cheating. Supposedly his heart was always mine but sexuality is supposed to be open as part of human experience? WTF? I mean come on. I seem to be old fashioned in light of the company I keep but I really want to be with someone who really wants to be with only me? In every way! Does that even exist anymore? Did it ever?! It seems like everywhere you turn someone is cheating on someone else. I don't want that stuff. I want what I want I guess I just don't know if anyone else wants it you know?
Hi Donna, I wonder how you came across this site, has it been suggested to you or just by an internet search?
I ensure you that there are many people around who practice loyalty in relationships. Many of'em would not dream of cheating their fiance or spouse. Some of'em have such fantasies but they remain in that realm. So your attitude does not seem old fashioned at all, just a legitimate demand. If you exhibit moral integrity you are bound to attract a man with integrity.
Anyway that's beside the point I guess except that this breakup really made me start yearning for something more in my life a spiritual connection I want to get closer to the Divine, not the whole white bearded god in the sky like was taught about in my grandmas churches but that divine that thing I feel when I am painting or when Im'm hiking? That probably just sounds silly but its how I feel anyway. I just don't know where to start. I'm really lost.
It doesn't sound silly at all, many of us here felt the presence of God in such instances. The theistic God has a beard and sits on a throne, the impersonal God can have no personification or can have the personification you wish. But we may also say that the theistic God is but a standard personification (supported by some churches) of the deistic, impersonal God.
