Thank you Steve - I appreciate your reaching out and taking the time to respond - putting your thoughts on 'paper'. Much food for thought there. This is a very difficult time for me, and so it is not easy or even possible at times to form ideas into coherent words. I have attempted to reply a few times but everything that comes out feels forced and contrite. That said, I didn't want another day to go by without at least a 'thank you'. So, thank you! I am spending a lot of time these days just being - doing simple things that make me happy, and trying to get a handle on my emotions. I read a lot, and paint - meditate - take care of the children. Bought myself a bodhran a couple of weeks ago; something I've wanted for many years, and so when I feel I am about to burst I practice rhythms. Ha ha. life's a trip. :-)
McCoy, yes the children are with me. They are certainly impacted, but we will do our best. Our home is peaceful. I am considering adding a dog to our little family in the summertime. The holidays are trying with all the nostalgia, but I will go to my family on the West coast soon for a love filled visit. My husband is still in the picture and is very sorrowful about how he chose to make his exit, etc and we will always be friends - I know this in my core - but at the moment, I prefer to avoid his presence because my main emotion despite all is that of profound betrayal. Listening to his apologies and professions of how this is the best for all of us (so that we can grow) should be some consolation, but if I am homest, deep down, I am still raging - and it impacts my health. c'est la vie! <3
I believe what is most important to us and to me in particular is that we are able to get to know you. This has been difficult in the past because you focused your life so singularly on your family. Don't you feel as though you are letting more people into your life now? We have been communicating on and off again for years and as u know we share many memories from our days at yoganandaji which i do not intend to stop unless for some reason it becomes necessary to take a break. By the way we appreciate your picture... so much Scorpio there. But that is another topic I intend to continue in another area.
