Hi McCoy – sadly, yes. I may seem cavalier now, but there have been months of soul shaking pain. It’s a process – and in going through it, I realize not all of that pain came from just my marriage. It’s older than that. So, in this way, it is good that I go through the inner work. Perhaps I can finally be free of certain demons. My challenge is to embrace the change without letting bitterness set in. I aim for compassion. Most days I succeed. Some nights I do not – not fully yet, anyway. My husband experienced a midlife crisis. Some call it crisis. Maybe a more positive term is ‘epiphany’. This is not something I can fix. It has been humbling, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Steve, it’s amazing how many people I have heard from recently out of the blue – friends and family from far away who sensed my pain though they could not have possibly ‘known’ it was there. Such serendipities reinforce my faith in the Mysterious.
Many of us have gone thru these irrevocable changes (myself included). It is amazing to find such coldness in others when such warmth was once present. Thru time we often recognize that their presence served to stimulate illusions rather then to highlight hope and uplifting transformation. Proclaimed Love should at least b able to give kindness at its loss... but apparently some people can not even do that.
Fortunately for us the great ones do have a plan for us that does include happiness in our lives. Slow by slow we recognize the kindness God provides. We might not have even expected from what corner assauging comfort and reassurance unexpectedly emerge.
