Hi McCoy – sadly, yes. I may seem cavalier now, but there have been months of soul shaking pain. It’s a process – and in going through it, I realize not all of that pain came from just my marriage. It’s older than that. So, in this way, it is good that I go through the inner work. Perhaps I can finally be free of certain demons. My challenge is to embrace the change without letting bitterness set in. I aim for compassion. Most days I succeed. Some nights I do not – not fully yet, anyway. My husband experienced a midlife crisis. Some call it crisis. Maybe a more positive term is ‘epiphany’. This is not something I can fix. It has been humbling, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Steve, it’s amazing how many people I have heard from recently out of the blue – friends and family from far away who sensed my pain though they could not have possibly ‘known’ it was there. Such serendipities reinforce my faith in the Mysterious.
Your presence is greatly appreciated here! Thanks for opening up to us and revealing yourself a bit!
