Hi McCoy – sadly, yes. I may seem cavalier now, but there have been months of soul shaking pain. It’s a process – and in going through it, I realize not all of that pain came from just my marriage. It’s older than that. So, in this way, it is good that I go through the inner work. Perhaps I can finally be free of certain demons. My challenge is to embrace the change without letting bitterness set in. I aim for compassion. Most days I succeed. Some nights I do not – not fully yet, anyway. My husband experienced a midlife crisis. Some call it crisis. Maybe a more positive term is ‘epiphany’. This is not something I can fix. It has been humbling, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Steve, it’s amazing how many people I have heard from recently out of the blue – friends and family from far away who sensed my pain though they could not have possibly ‘known’ it was there. Such serendipities reinforce my faith in the Mysterious.
