Message #19206

[SpiritImage]

So today I went to an SRF center in Portland, never have been there before, there was a monastic up from California doing the talking (that's why I went really). I liked him.

But you know, the rest of it I felt like a square peg in a round hole again. I felt I didn't belong there. I don't know why really, I'm sure everyone there is nice and all.

It feels uncomfortable. When I was a kid I used to go to church every sunday, one of these places was an old monastery. Freaky to a kid, black gates out front, very adams family-ish. Sometimes I was the only one there at the mass, really. There were nuns up top mostly out of sight in a balcony-like area, probably required to be there. Another church I frequented had communion, and confession. Confession was awkward.

I dont think any of that has to do with how I felt today, but it does have some subconscious links for me it seems.