My spiritual journey: you know me from the SRF devotee board.
I was baptised and confirmed in the Lutheran church in a Scandinavian country. I very much liked Jesus, but could not fathomed the virgin birth and all the other doctrines. Still, I believed in what he was supposed to have said and done. Never enjoyed the " holy communion", thinking it very odd, so was not very keen on going to church, but always had a longing for something.
Got married, got divorced, immigrated to Australia with my two small children. Totally madness! Anyway, all went well, got a good job as a technical drafts(wo)man. At work met some guys who were Rosicricians (AMORC), and became one myself. They got me interested by a booklet called "Mastery of Life", and that was a big WOW-moment for me. Especially the reincarnation bit. And the affirmation idea, which was familiar to me, as I always stuck with the teachings of Jesus. "If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains." Apparently a mustard seed is quite small. I have not seen one!
So many wonderful miracles happened to me, and synchronicities, because I managed to have that faith. A lot of the times, but there have also been times where my faith faltered a bit; however, as I have written down a lot of the good things, I remind myself about them, and my faith comes back.
In the Rosicrucian Order I met a man, and we lived together for ten years, 5 more than I was married.
Then that soured, but we were friends again later, although still apart, till he died.
What next? I retired from work and moved to the country, not far from my son, when he became a father. He and his wife built my house at the same time as they finished their own.
Christmas 2003 they came here as usual, but he had his arms full of new, interesting books. One was called "Autobiography of a yogi". Well,well, I had read it before, but hastily, a borrowed book, in around 1964, as I was struggling to establish myself in a foreign country. There was a story about a cauliflower robbery, and ever since, when I was preparing cauliflower for dinner, I thought of these Indian masters, and what a pity I could never meet any of them.
Crickey! This was that same book! I read it all on Boxing Day.
An even bigger Wow-moment than the Mastery of life booklet.
As soon as I could, I got the lessons, and as soon as I could, I became a kriyaban. But lately I just can't sit for such a long time, I get cramps. I am also running out of time for long meditations, as I am 82 years old now, and there is still so much gardening I must do to make it safe for the fire season. I do not feel like having my lovely place burn down at my age, so I am clearing and clearing, and my son comes and helps when a whole tree has fallen down in the gales we are getting sometimes. I take care of all the branches and still use chainsaws, but now with wonderful lithium batteries, so there is no hard starting all the time. But I get a bit tired! And I also want to practice my harp.
Was busy working full time, but absolutely flat out being retired!
I have bought all the SRF books, and loved reading them, underlining a lot. Yogananda is so right in what he is saying.
But the last year I have been reading about the spiritualists, such as Suzanne Gieseman's "Wolf's message". Amazing book, lovely woman, and after her books others spawned from that. Not that I will become a spiritualist.
Earlier years I read about the Cathars in France, who got burnt at the stake by the Catholic Church.
Then there is the Hasidic rabbi Yonassan Gershom. From Wikipedia: He is best known for having written several books on the topic of the Holocaust and reincarnation. Beyond the Ashes and From Ashes to Healing recount stories of people who claim to have died in the Holocaust and are now reincarnated,[7] while Jewish Tales of Reincarnation deals with Jewish accounts of reincarnation, including a few from the Holocaust but mostly others from classical Jewish texts and oral tradition.
Riveting reading. He has such a friendly face and a great sense of humour.
One woman at harp goes and gets hugged by Amma, when she is in our part of the world.
Last year I read something about kundalini awakening, which scared me, and I now have a book by Gopi Krishna called "Living with kundalini". He did the kriya the wrong way round, did not have a guru and nearly went insane, until he found out how to correct his mistake. He burnt badly in his spine. Scary.
I am not searching any more. I will never look for another guru but Yogananda, but at the moment I am not doing serious meditations.
I feel I am doing the right things, though, and have no regrets, and all the people I have met, many still my friends, and the ones whose books I have, they have enriched my life. Also the two men in my life, even if they were not ideal relationships, they and my family are my karma. Earlier I sometimes bemoaned my life, but now I am happy.
And when God surprised me with the harp, well, it just shows, somebody is looking after me. And I am far from being an angel!
I am working hard to sort things out, so I can have a good departure, when the time comes. Not come back to spook, earthbound.
I hope for at least 10 more years, also so my dogs will not be left orphaned!
I hope you will enjoy your meeting with Amma to the fullest.
Pentatonic.
