Interesting, I don't usually think in demonic terms, for example in this case I just chalk it up to not having enough will power, control, experience, etc., to just sit down and click right into meditation, sure the underlying cause might be demonic, but those thoughts seem to be demolished as soon as I realize it's me that needs to improve with God's help. In other words, I know it's possible and I should be able to do it, regardless of the reason.
Spirit image, I agree with what you say but I have been looking back often, I've been meditating for 36 years now sometimes imposing upon my self a harsh and continuos discipline, but restlessness has never left me. The only explanation I find is that a demon is trying his best to frustrate my effort. Of course the demon makes use of karma and enhances the negative karmic influences which in my case would enhance the natural restlessness. of the mind. I can feel the malevolent intelligence behind it.
The advantage of noticing this is that it becomes a personal issue. That is, not giving satisfaction to that demon becomes a priority, so meditation becomes a double priority.
Mccoy the energy field of people who have Uranus connected to their Sun in a strong way often is quite restless but at the same time inventive and creative and energetic and magnetic. I noticed you also have a T square in your chart which works out in your 5th house of self-expression. So there is the dynamic aspect of a Sun-Moon opposition involved with Neptune square. It works out in the 5th house of self-expression so you need an outlet for your creativity and your self expression in your life and to find fulfilling pleasure. Your hopes and dreams are challenged because of contrasting values you find with life circumstances and people who come in your life. It is constructive in that it gives an urge to look beyond temporary satisfactions of this life and helps you find new ways of of self expression that include others even though their are differences.
No doubt your activities here are a channel for self expression as well and without you here it would be drab. It often provides contrast and a different slant on views. We were not made to be alike but to find our own way to the mountain top. We can compare experiences though and there is so much to learn from everyone. I find your spirit very receptive to understanding the views of others. It is rather contagious. I need to learn from it.
