Message #31214

[fisherking1111]

I don't relate to most people's description of Sex.  I like Brock's, who started this thread 6 years ago...

It took me 37 years to find a partner who was able to communicate in the energetic realm, and as Consciousness, not their body. 

The energy was so intense we when would just talk, that both of our bodies would be flooded with Divine Light, she would fall to the floor, miles away, we would often become totally silent.  She would orgasm without any sexual touching, just from our words and energy, something she had never experienced before.

I've felt this potential with ever girl I've ever loved romantically, but all of them were extremely afraid of this kind of connection.  They all seemed to prefer more carnal, physical expressions of sexuality.

I wonder if I will ever find another person to experience what I have to offer, who has the same flowing through them?

Why is this world so focused on money, over transcendent experience?

The merging of Love and Sex and God and Self, her and I experienced was not nearly as important to her as having her bills paid by a man who she said has no spiritual awareness.... who didn't even turn her on, she said... who she didn't relate to mentally, she said...

It is so hard not to get attached to such experiences... when you and your lover are in pure bliss for hours... minds and bodies dissolved into Absolute Consciousness... not loving one another as bodies or people, but as God/Goddess/Love/Self

It's a miracle that such a thing is even possible...

It's a tragedy that so few know this is possible, and so sad that so many girls I know have not wanted to see who their deepest Self is with a partner... maybe wait 10,000 more lifetimes....

Maybe it's most tragic that I expect anything... my mind's attachment, judgement, analysis, "need to feel right"....

God is everything.  Self is in everything.

Even mediocrity.

Even in settling for less joy, bliss and spiritual awareness...

It's all perfect

Even feeling sad

<3