Message #15971

[kingfisher111]

I woke up from a dream today, where I was hanging out with a girl I met through myspace about 10 years ago.  In the dream, she was just as I remembered her, and it was nice hanging out with her.  She's one of the most talented and undeniably beautiful girls I've even tangentially known in this life.  I prevented us from knowing each other better 10 years ago, because I was going through quite an intense existential crisis at the time, having just left a Spiritual cult I was devoted to 24/7 for 2 years, filled with many difficult emotional and mental challenges in finding a new meaning in Life outside of what the cult taught me and what the hundreds of people there believed (which I wouldn't become free from for another 3-4 years, fully).

This was one of the coolest, most talented and beautiful girls in the world, who was on a very intense karmic ride (as many of the girls or guys I've been close to or attracted to or by have been).  She has since become world famous with millions of fans, travels the world constantly, but is rich and famous now for her beauty, and continues to make art, photography and maybe write poetry as well (though those are much more difficult mediums to become materially successful through).  I wrote a song with a beautiful poem of her's as lyrics, the only song I ever wrote with someone else's words.  The music for the song had a very odd structure and I was trying to write lyrics to go with it, but nothing I wrote matched the emotion of the guitar chords I was playing, then I read a poem she had just published within the same hour I wrote those chords for the verse and chorus of the song, and amazingly her poem fit into the odd structure of the song perfectly (which was 2 verses of 14 bars and 2 choruses of 6 bars in 3/4 timing).

In the dream, we were in a video game, at a high school, talking about playing a the same video game we were already inside of.  At different points in the dream we were in the game, and other points talking about playing the game we were already living inside of.  She seemed to not realize this game was something you can play, and just considered she was in "real life" until I brought it up.  Kinda "Matrix" like.  Kinda the way reality seems to me, as surreal as it has been for me many times with beautiful and wild syncronicities of it all, never ceasing.

Not a ton happened in the dream, but I've been reflecting on my encounters with this girl in the dream and real life since I woke up 3 hours ago.  A very special person I hadn't thought about in some time.