Message #30964

[guest88]

on tuesday i had a difficult time expressing idea's during a conference call for work. on wednesday and thursday i've had friends try to tell me things they see about me or come at me very boldly with their beliefs and they only wanted to be heard not reciprocated. yesterday while counting inventory at work the system crashed and i had to start a section over, something was rung up wrong and i had to re-enter that and correct peoples clock-in times. last night i was thinking about the girl that triggered my dreams and shared the 888 prompt with. the one i met by the river and felt like we were the same soul. i was still very upset with her and a friend, i don't wish to harbor anger but it's true and i think i realize the reason i was rose-colored vision was because i simply crave an intimate relationship with a spiritually, physically and mentally attractive woman. having felt isolated by the answers from 2008 and sufism dream experience, i also realize i was getting to hung up on the first ray of angel hierarchy and decided to just keep my focus on god. i still think about the girl that causes me grief and anxiety but realize i think i just have a desire for partnership,the grief is my own. oh yeah and my dad was passed out and accidentally left moms soup cooking with the highest setting on the stove top. i got home to a smokey house that smelt like wood fire and was able to turn it off in time.