Is that you Comet? I thought I heard an echo. I guess I need to be sure. Lately my voice seems to just go out in the emptiness.
Sometimes it feels so lonely filled in a planet of people. I have been had so many times that I just look for a little kindness
now and then nothing more. I still do get it in some people but so many relationships evaporate in the heat of challenges. To me those friends just took themselves too seriously. There is something that is light and lasting about love that forgives those differences. I am trying to fix the leak of frustration that betrays my calm attempts at being loving. Would it make a difference if they loved me like I still love them? But how could they when I call out to them and hear only silence? I keep going back to the silence of my own heart in which something speaks to me. It isn't easy but it does speak to me when there is no reply from the outside. It has given me so much over the years that I know it will be there again. Sometimes when I least
expect it.... it returns.
LOL!! Yes that is me!!! Yes it can feel lonely at times!!! I agree certain relationships do evaporate in the heat of challenges but not me!! I don't scare that easily!! I know people need to lighten up some!! With online friendships lack emotions so you can't tell when the person is kidding or not and that creates a lot of misunderstands!! I've learned to lower my expectations on others too!! That helps too cause that way they won't disappoint us!!
Sometimes it's hard for people to love others!! I have set up a lot of boundaries after getting burned online over the years just when i think i figure the person out they do a complete 180!! LOL
I am a very independent, strong person and i am my own best friend i rarely have time to get lonely!! Took me awhile to get to this point! Strongest i been in years!! Starting to let the guard down a little and just go with the flow and have fun but i am aware of my surroundings too!!
Like i said Steve hang in there!! Real friends always comes back!!!
((hugs))
Comet
