Message #20633

[Jitendra Hydonus]

....Were we in this decision making process when we ended up here?

I believe we weren't !

Yes it doesn't seem that way. But do u ever notice a bit of bitterness surrounding this issue? i do. It's like why do i have to b part of your experiment Lord? i mean it isn't exactly fun. If it were i wouldn't b looking for a way out. So wasn't i a bit coerced to b good? i mean isn't that the way out of this Chinese puzzle? The only way out? It's your way or the highway. Rite? i mean if we do not do it your way we get to suffer some more. Rite? i mean isn't that what all your ambassadors have been telling us all along? .... 'so you want to enjoy the senses? Have fun. He he he. See where it gets you! But at the same time i am going to make it look like it is gonna be a lot of fun.' i don't know but sometimes from a limited human perspective it seems a bit sadistic. Jut trying to come to terms with my own thoughts and feelings. Why isn't the spiritual life just as enticing as the life of the senses? It sets my head a reeling. Just have to go back to the meditation. i just feel fortunate that i have found a way to freedom. So many people still can't get a grasp on that. That is that meditation is  the path to ultimate freedom.