Message #29304

[guest88]

Wow thanks Steve. And, as always, I am grateful for this place to share with you and gain perspective. Funny you too had a special message from the Ant today. I may share this totemic knowledge after this post. That breaks my Heart what Yogananda has said about Jesus. Wow...

Concerning my grievances earlier... A little clarification...

I think I was a little upset earlier because my Heart is ready to resolve the past with my ex but the reality has shown me that now is not that time and simultaneously my Heart was opening up to a Love interest with who I thought was my ideal Woman but reality again has shown that now is not our time either. In both instances a door opened up just recently only to be given the silent treatment from both parties all at the same time. My friend has pointed out to me that this timing is a message in learning not to be bothered by external circumstance. Given the current chapter I'm learning in the Gita, I do believe Spirit was speaking through him and this is the right message. I understand I have some Karma to work out and more importantly am learning how to treat others the way I wish to be treated while not being bothered by upsetting situations. I suppose it's right to say it's very much an Ego thing to think my, "ideal Woman" the way I imagine is out there for procreative and romantic purposes and an ego thing to try and put my last relationship in good standing when she isn't ready.

The silent treatment may be asking us to learn to find peace internally when things aren't going our way. Fortunately I have a wonderful group of friends like yourself to figure these things out. It's easy to talk about, a lot harder to practice when these affairs are more intimate . I see it's important to try, even when the mind is hard to still. Putting what you said about Jesus into perspective is very humbling. 

I may try and share some more GTWA later on too. Cheers.