Message #27029

[guest88]

Namaste friend. I get the silent treatment plenty and am guilty of giving it too. Todays world is strange. Like texting for example... It makes it super easy to detect when you're being ignored, then to watch others try to be formal about it or make excuses- it's nauseating. We all want to be heard and validated and when we can send each other our thoughts at any given moment, I don't know if it's really a good thing. Now that I am freed from my sales job, I am trying to spend less time carrying that radioactive smart phone around with little success. I guess this is a separate topic concerning health but we are all so addicted to our phones and they've become our primary mode for just about anything we do in life(Pay bills, set schedules, play games, create music, chat with friends)....
Anyways... Yes, girls in particular are very selective in who they respond to on their phones. It seems the ones I talk to always have more then one suitor so the ball is most always in their court. Sometimes it's the other way around, I am the one uninterested and end up ignoring because I don't want to pretend and lead someone on. So it's kind of ironic and makes you really understand what a girl means when she says, "let's just be friends" HAH!

In regards to my previous relationship- good riddens. What an awful relationship that was. We had our innocent and beautiful moments but they've become outweighed by terrible communication, lack of intimacy and a general unwillingness to call things for what they were/are. Her singing voice used to penetrate my soul but now my heart is hardened and I don't care to love this person anymore. It may sound cold hearted but it's liberating. Should our paths cross I hope to maintain a level head since I do carry anger still... Be kind and be in and out of there. Leave me alone is how I feel now.

I am very personable and keep only a small group of friends for a lifetime. Even those who are no longer in communication with me that are my friends, we feel so much love for each other when we see one another. I can't say the same for this person and its okay, I got to focus on forgiving myself and achieving my goals.

This "treatment" has been a window to Love. The purer aspects of it, the intensity of it(even if it's just one sided) and the corrupt aspects as well. I believe Inayat Khan is right to say after we experience this we pursue it in a deeper sense(like with God)... The next woman I experience anything with will be more of an equal and deserving experience. I believe there is someone out there for me and this girl was definitely not the one.